SuNfLoWerY mE

Mixed Feelings

2007-08-29T21:55:00.000+08:00

I have so many mixed feelings..Perhaps it has been a long day..back to back lessons and it started in the morning with "Mother Fucker", principals walking past, magic cards confiscated,hp confiscated, vp coming to confirm if movie shown was a relief period...Which was not..I'm their co-form teacher. How am I suppose to feel?

Not sure what the VP's intention was but I just hope for the best. Tmr meeting reporting officer for my recent lesson observation. Good luck to me man~! Teachers' day is this Friday, am gonna get my makeup artist to makeup for me. Hope I won't overdo it....

I just hope Friday will be a peaceful day with no hate mails....

I hope tings will head upwards with things coming my way...More love, sincerity, fun, time, .......and on and on... May true friends surface~~!I need more love and encouragement....

=) My Dream Has Come True, now what? =)

2007-08-15T23:43:00.000+08:00

My dream has come true after 6 years. 3 years of poly + 1 year of nie + 2 years of f&n.....This dream started when i was 14...Whee~~! School is going fine...Continuing to build rapport with students. I heard abt the caring teacher award, but don't think will get voted cos been in school for only 8 weeks. My cousin hopes I get it next year but I m not counting on it. I

I want to be what she once said :" I just want to be a good teacher to my students". Next week is the deadline for Term 3 marks...gonna do calculations..Haha..hope don't calculate wrongly....I m looking forward to the holidays and getting to know my students better! =)

Cheers to Ms Cheng!

Thanks to everyone who has supported me. I wouldn't be what I am without you....^^V

My New Journey

2007-07-15T01:27:00.000+08:00

:) 2 whole months of no blogging.This means I have been busy with school...Haha..or lazy to blog.Well...I just had my teachers' investiture ceremony on Wednesday. Don't I look smart? This is Carol from Dip Ed (Art), award winner! Dun play play...

School is ok, coping but I think I can do better. ;) Have no time to upload new photos on friendster too. I love school. Sometimes my students drive me crazy but I love them no matter what.Alicia's birthday is coming....I am getting ready for the big day, make sure u r too.

7 months have passed in being 21 yet I am still searching for an identity...I think I need all the time in the year to find out.Room in a mess, the result of spending little time at home. Sometimes I blame myself for my mum's condition when it heads downhill. Perhaps things would be better when I spend more time with her.

(: J***** Sec School :) Here I come!

2007-05-14T22:56:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day of our enrichment programme. Practicum has come to an end, should get a pass bah. Morning a lecturer made a comment about how I did not fail my practicum all because I was sotong and did not file the lesson plans according to the 5 categories. So mean!!! Nvm, I am a magnimous person, shall not bear grudges against her.It is not worth it.

We attended a wonderful talk by Mr Jeffry Goh who shared with us his lifestory.

From today I will always remember:

No one loves me more than I love myself.

I will remember this from now on and remind my students about self worth. This sentence will bring me through times when I am down. I will disallow people to make me feel lousy about myself. I am special, there is no one else like me!

Through the talk, I pen down some thoughts, shall share with you...

I am here in your life for a reason,
You need to look for this quality in me.
Not because I want to hear praises,
But because this quality of mine can help you succeed
and this is your choice to seek within me.

Another point to note.
Did al of us ever stop and think about why is it always the pretty and handsome people who always commit suicide?

What about those who are handicapped and live life which are worst off than us.
BUT THEY HAVE NEVER EVER TRY TO COMMIT SUICIDE.

FOOD FOR THOUGH INDEED!

Going to this neighbourhood school to teach is indeed a challenge. I hope I will do well there and I hope and wish with all my might!

Practicum Days

2007-04-23T19:41:00.000+08:00

:) All is well....Practicum is in wk 7, 3 more weeks to go... :) WELL...Everything is under control...like a roller coaster ride. Bad days and good days...Happy to have a clique of nice people which i can chit chat all day long in the room. We have a whole room to ourselves.8 of us, 1 left because she is a returning teacher. So now just 7 of us... Haha..I sound boring...But I m not bored...just want to go on and on like a grand old mother....Chao...more to type next time. :)

Just another entry..

2007-03-04T18:00:00.000+08:00

Hi people...
Havent been blogging for a long time...nth much yet....seems like lots are happening...Hmm...
Practicum has started for a week.Nth much in general...Just alright...Hope to touch the students and have someone to touch me.That's all...Bye....

Me Me Me

2007-01-28T23:28:00.000+08:00

Aged 21
Feels more blur than ever
Feels knowledge degrading
Mixed feelings about life...*partly due to pms*

Aged 21
Older:Greater responsibilties
Have almost everything in life
Contented
Yearning for more
Teacher-to-be

What else can I blog about?

Did well in NIE, or rather for the 1st semester.
Hoping to do a degree in time to come
Realised 1 month's of a parent's medical bills is very costly,need to remind myself to save
Wish more happiness and good health + flatter tummy will come my way.
Pray hard my students will like me and do well in the practicum.

It's the NEW YEAR!! 1.7.2007

2007-01-01T12:01:00.000+08:00

:) kEKE...I'm going to get my mum to buy the first 4D for me.Haha.. 1707 is a good no. right...If I strike I won't break the bond seriously. I'll just have a better life or sth..Haha...Or stash it away for wedding. It's so expensive to get married I think, or rather to prepare for a dream wedding.

For now, all I can think of is MY 21ST BIRTHDAY.WooHoo~! Yipee!!! Hahaha...Looking forward to presents...excited about what my friends would be getting for me and having them to share my joy. I'll just make it short and sweet I guess...:) NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS?

Soon....

-- Dorm Life and Recent Happenings--

2006-11-02T18:45:00.000+08:00

Hi people!!!
I'm back...keke...Life so far has been pretty peaceful. Dorm mate has been very nice to me. But I can't help wonder when will it really last? It's hard to trust people once they have betrayed yr trust. She probably feels the same way about me actually. She gave only me a box of chocolate chip cookies. *so touched*

Yum yum...psst...the choc chip cookies I bought from Aust is still in my cupboard. M sure Alicia is gonna scream when she sees this......I'm gonna move out from the dorm on the 15th November. Sad...Just when I thought dorm was a good hideout even though initially it wasnt...it turned out to be my fav. place. I'll miss the

view,
the people (which I don't even know any),
the bed (it's really comfy!!better than my home's).....

I'm planning to do self studying during the holidays. I can't wait to start planning for my holis and 21st birthday!!!!! Just when it seems never, it's here!! I'm growing older....Before u know it, I'll finish my bond! What else...Today sth happened between this ex-poly schmate and me. He's doing Multi-level networking job.And he wanted a loan. Initially I agreed but after telling my sis, she told me not to. Being a little girl, of course I obey her. Not because I dun have my own opinion, but I know she can't be wrong abt such things. I told my schmate I changed my mind and ended the phone conversation pretty unhappily. I don't want to go into details....I will if u ask me personally. :) Well, I'm fine. I have grown up...if my friends decide to end the friendship.I'll readily agree. People come and people go. I just wanna take things in my own stride...There will be people who are more worthy of my friendship then some others....

Crystal is growing up...She will grow up one day...But till then...I'm still kiddish me!!! Just ask Yeow Kuang!

Yo yo....

2006-10-04T20:15:00.000+08:00

My mother's condition deteriorated drastically after she resigned and started to stay at home. The first day was bad. @.@ Good luck...NO WORRIES, I WILL PERSEVERE LIKE YOU NEVER KNOW! I wish Dementia is a reversible disease....but sadly it is not. I used to wish that she would not talk so much when she nagged at me. My wish has been fulfilled....She's quiet most of the time now. So vulnerable.My wishes have always come true. I realised that some of the wishes are not always pleasing....I will wish for things to turn her way soon....

School is so-so.So-so because classmates I have no comments. As for assignments....some got B grade...Hmm...We'll see if I can maintain. I wish for Ms Tan to be my supervising teacher in time to come. May all things go well...It's October.After November will be my holidays. WOW!! Time flies, microteaching is coming soon....must plan plan plan....

I'm awake, because September is over...

2006-10-01T01:01:00.001+08:00

September has come to an End!! Hurray....September is not exactly a bad month for me cos' it's my anniversary.Time flies, it's OCTOBER ALREADY. Soon I'll be a working adult. Happy children's day!! Keke...Happiest times we had on such days wit all the presents. I got a pen, ice cream during recess, candies....pencil case...So many presents....

Nothing much to say except that break is going to be over in less than 48 hours. Time to strive on again!!!I will persevere, so will you!

I'm awake, because September is over...

2006-10-01T01:01:00.000+08:00

Just another entry

2006-09-23T01:12:00.000+08:00

YyeahHhpIee!!! School has ended!! I have survived the first semester. 3 more to CONQUER OR FIGHT! I WILL WIN THE WAR.haha...Each week is like a war game.So many challenges.Sometimes things doesn't go well but...I'll pull through it. I don't know but I will manage. Everyone know I will so how can I can't?

Today was a good day at school even though I almost cried out on Thurs night.My bf was working and I knew I couldnt call him and tell him about it.Oh well, it's during such incidents/experiences that allow you to grow isnt' it?I just took one step at a time and VOILA! We had presentation, I managed to finish the other 2 assignments.

And......I got 4As for each category for the group presentation. Everyone laughed at our talkshow....Keke...The venue was a whole new experience.The supportive classmates from all walks of life (ARTS + MUSIC + HOME ECONOMICS). And I got a B from the strict tutor for my reflection. I will KAMBATTE!!! It seems that reaching my goal for a sponsorship of a cross over is coming. I will work hard for the degree in time to come. I want to make my parents proud but most importantly, it's for myself.This has been what I wanted for myself.

Let's work towards the future!!

Alrighty ...update update...but BEWARE: Negative Chungui has taken over sunflowery chungui....

2006-09-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

Pls note before you start reading that it's a negative blog or rather these are my thoughts....

What has the world become? People have become distrustful, rude....no moral shld i say....I'm not saying everyone has become like that but 3/4 of people I know are like this. I lent my clothes to one of my friend...Met him, he was in a rush...just said "bye" and left. No thank you.U may think he's in a rush so forgotten to say thanks....But to me, it means a lot.Isn't it basic courtesy?How long does it take you to say two words?My GOD....What has the world turn to?And remind me again: THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING.....

People only think of themselves.They can agree to anything you say and change their mind the very next day.

IS IT JUST ME???IS THERE A PROBLEM WITH ME?YES, THERE IS....Ms nice.Ms good-to-bully.
I wasnt expecting this to be happening in NIE.Classmates cum friends have become my greatest disappointment.I thought NIE would be a good experience.It has turned out to be indeed good...preparing me for the POLITICAL WORLD. My pri sch mate told me:"People who doesn't misuse your trust doesn't mean they wouldnt't misuse it later on". Last September I learnt a lesson about human character, now it's haunting me again.

WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS!!!

Must the worst things happen this month?

WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS!!!

Suddenly, the future about everything seems uncertain.

If I could...then I would.....

2006-09-08T23:13:00.000+08:00

Let me share a blog entry that I typed a week ago but didn't have access to internet so I didn't post it up.

Here again u come and tell me about doing redundant work about ed psy 2.That I came up with a suggestion of answering all the questions individually and compiling it.That every1 agreed and so u agreed too.

It is sth useful that is why I suggested to the group.
1) Everyone can share work equally knowing what is happening. No one is being a freeloader
2) The amount of information prepares us for out one page handout and presentation slides.

How am I supposed to read your mind? I told her the 2nd point which was good enough to answer why we are doing what we are doing. I spoke my view and got blamed that everyone agreed with me when you chose not to speak up cos’ everyone seems agreeable. I see your point but it’s a discussion, u’re suppose to give yr own view…

When is this saga ending? It is perhaps just the beginning one of my classmate warned me. I want to stop yr attitude towards me. How can I predict when you're nice enough to answer my questions and when u r not? Perhaps all of us are adapting but …….Or perhaps perhaps perhaps……

NIE -- Here I am to Conquer You

2006-08-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

Hey hey....I m feeling better now.Things are back to usual...I have adjusted to their character.Not to worry, nothing will change about my character.I'll just learn to select who to trust and rely on, who deserve more of my kindness etc etc.I won't harm them and hurt them in anyway.I'll remain true to myself.Thanks so much to those who cares a lot for me.I was very hurt but I have recovered and take it easy.This is one of the setbacks I encountered being 20.I'll just do my best and let the rest fall in place.Will I get the x-over?We shall see.I'll do my best and I know GOD has a better plan for me. ^^v

I have been in control in NIE, all the meetings of 9 modules...social life, family...NIE...I'm ready for the challenges ahead.To overcome procrastination and accomplishing each assignment allows me to have a great sense of achievement.I feel pretty productive.I know the best is yet to be, I have yet to overcome the challenges ahead.But fear not!!I may fall along the way, cry a bit, act like a spoilt brat....BUT I'LL SURVIVE!!I just need time to get over it. That's how I have been brought up! Never say DIE!!So those of u out there who feels like giving up...DON'T!! Cos the BEST IS YET TO BE........

Disappointment and Perseverance

2006-08-12T01:22:00.000+08:00

I dislike the feeling of disappointment.It's like the feeling of falling and knowing that you are rejected.Doesnt people always say "Treat others the way you want to be treated"? But what aout me?Putting others before self yet all I get is.....Being classmates for some years and I realised: They are *******.No vulgarities here, just a word that I decided not to reveal.Here again considering other's feelings, but I jolly well know that the one getting hurt is me.I always consider their feelings.Yet when it comes to a small matter....I'm not impt in their decision-making at all.They would rather choose someone whose character is trash rather than work with their close classmate.Put yrself in my shoes.

I know how I shld take this matter into hand.Find other project mates whom I know I'll work fine with....But thinking about it is enough to cut my heart.

I shall persevere till the end!It's a setback but I'm a sunflower.I will continue to shine.Just having some withering petals to make room for new ones and blooming even brighter than yesterday!

When you feel lost, just hang on

2006-08-06T02:07:00.000+08:00

U asked me what's wrong.But I don't know what's wrong.Everything seems so out of place...Being a teenager is tough, but being an adult is tougher!!Small things appear important to me.Well, what to do when I'm a sensitive person?Just so many thoughts...

Afraid of being lost and getting lousy grades at NIE....
Afraid of losing certain things
Afraid of having the world falling apart around me.....

When does Crystal fears?

Just that when you treasure everything and getting comfortable with things and people ard you, you want things to always remain the same.Probably it's time things change.I'm a fearless person.I'm sure I will be able to overcome the challenges ahead! I will do my best and enjoy life at NIE!! Will aim for the crossover degree.But I'll probably get the degree after teaching for 1 or 2 yrs.I am not confident of handling 2 subjects at 1 go man!

I finally clean up the floor in my dorm.Haha!! Looks pretty comfy.Have more things to fill in.Will do it slowly.Looking ard for a bar fridge now.I wanted to have a long entry for today but I guess everything seems better now after some rambling down here....It's such a peaceful night.In fut. I'll be spending the night slogging away for lesson plans and assignments, lesser blogging.....

2006-07-29T23:44:00.000+08:00

School will be starting in 2 weeks time.....OMG....:S Seems so stressful with what the lecturerstold us.Mood hasnt been too good these days....Worried for you-know-who-you-are.U're not having a good time and neither are we.A new set of worries of fitting in, getting along with friends,making the grades.....so many so many thoughts.

There is a high expectation at NIE and also my desire to meet it.To make it for a degree...:S Haha...at least the comforting thing now is that the fengshui of our room in the hostel seems quite good.:) Happy decorating, at least can invite some of my friends over.....Haha...:) Alicia, my mum....Lishi, some classmates etc.

To you-know-who-you-are:
You know you are loved far more than you ever know.We have always been there for you and will always you.C'mmon, u know you will meet someone better and we will always always be there for you.

*Hug*

A new chapter of life starts in NIE but not to worry, will still make time for you.Best friends since secondary school, best friends when in different polys,best friends when we are adults.Cant wait to visit you when u are in Australia studying and we will visit the same old shopping centres again!!! =)

When we don't msg u, it's not that we dun care...But simply because we think you need some time alone.Time heal all wounds.I've been through it and so will u.No doubts on tat!!

Nothing in particular

2006-07-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

This is a good way to type my blog- Type it on MS word and transfer it over to my blog.*Smiles* No particular reason for this blog. I have more control of my life now. Too much actually that I have started to let my thoughts run wild. In my close friends pt. of view is I’m thinking too much. I don’t know what to do with the time on my hands b4 sch actually starts. The BEST moment is now, but people never realize.

I am looking forward to NIE.People who have the common identity.Somewhere I was looking forward to when I was still in singlehood mode.Haha...But now, it's just window shopping.Oops, I shldn't even say that.Window shopping for my classmate lah.Looking forward to dorm life, achieving good grades, graduate with a Good diploma, not like the 1 I have now.I know it's the journey that we go though, but at the same time I really wanna do well and be offered a degree.And soon will come my 21st birthday, still can't decide whether to celebrate on Saturday/Sunday.Most probbly on the actual day lah.And then comes practicum.The nightmare.Of course I hope everything will go my way.At the same time, touch some lives.

I miss Australia, I really do.Alicia, shall we go there again?The world is a wonderful place to be in.How can some1 ever thought of leaving the world?New places to see, new food to try...new people to meet and most importantly, new thing to learn!

Me:So am I Piglet (cos sometimes I am shy)/ Tigger (active)

U:I think u're more like Pooh, look at ur tummy.

Me: *LOOK AT HIM SHEEPISHLY*

I can't I can't I can I can

2006-06-28T17:51:00.000+08:00

I can't wait to knock off from work
I can't wait to play for the whole month of July and do my favorite things as well.
I can't wait to spend more time with myself and family.
I can't wait to cook for them.
I can't wait to start teaching.

I can be stronger than whom I think I am.
I make make them pass Science even though I specialise in Home Econs.
I can get a sponsored degree-my next goal.
I can do well in NIE.
I can be a good daughter.
I can be a neat girl.
I can be who I want to be.
I can have dreams and make them come true.
I can do a lot of things, u can too!

:) Smiles-I am always in smiles BUT
I AM NOT SUPERFICIAL.I smile from the bottom of my heart.I will always do.I want to get a digi cam for my sister.Hehe..I want to start putting up more pictures on my blog.Suddenly I want to start the experience of practicum all over again.I have always love school and wanna stick with it even though I have graduated.What will practicum be like for me?With Ms Toh and Mrs Quek as my teachers and mentor, I cannot disappoint them. I will live up to their expectations. :) I am worthy of the best things in life Maria once told me.I believe so too.

The best things are not the most expensive things like Fendi,LV,branded goods BUT.........
A bag that catches my eyes
A necklace that is special
Food that taste yummy
Things that are expensive may not appear pretty.Just like people.

TREAT EVERY1 WITH A GENUINE HEART.That's me!

I'm a worrywart

2006-06-22T10:31:00.000+08:00

I'm a worrywart.I'm a worrywart.I'm a worrywart.I'm a worrywart.
I don't want to be a worrywart.I don't want to be a worrywart.I don't want to be a worrywart.

I'm still me but starting to doubt.These days there are so many things to worry and think about.Family, myself, the future.I can't wait for July to come cos' it's my month to HAVE FUN.Or at least that's what I have planned....Scrapbooking, revision, catching up with friends,library,chill at cafes....Muhahaha....I have been throwing away stuffs cos' they clutter my life but I think I need to get rid of more in order to work towards a neater me!

Still can't wait for my 21st birthday!! =) Hehehe....Plan plan plan..Thought of getting my bf to....ok,nvm.It's suppose to be a surprise so.Nth v v special..just a favour to ask from him!I'm thinking of getting a new blog too.New life new people...It's good to tidy up your life once a while, just like we need to tidy our emotions too.I'm fine, just startled by the worries I have out of a sudden.That's part of growing up!

Thought of my mum @ work today

2006-06-19T17:11:00.000+08:00

The thought of my mum aging crossed my mind at work today.

I can't bear the thought of it...

The thought of leaving her daughter behind.Her acts of love crossed my mind....

2006-06-13T10:06:00.000+08:00

Yet another month.Half way through 2006 le.My graduation ceremony took place last Friday.It was better than what I expected.Time flies...3 years already.So much pain yet it seems to fly by in the blink of an eye.July is going to be a month where I play and play and play...I've been through equal work&play when I just grad frm sec sch.And now-work work work+more work when I grad from poly.So after NIE will be play play play & more play!!!! Yipee! Perhaps will go for another Thailand trip for shopping spree~!I realised that I am lacking of office clothes. :( Too many shopping clothes le.Hehehe....Need to build up my wadrobe.Threw away some things over the past week.Think it's impractical to keep it after all how often do i utilise or look at it.So there!I am still working towards a neat me.I'm gonna share a room at the dorm with Faezah, cannot malu!! What else can I update on this blog?Hmm...so far so good I guess.

2006-06-05T01:19:00.000+08:00

I'm almost there to getting my freedom back...Good bye to my 2nd job.What an experience....More time for my love ones and of course myself and my fav. activities such as stoning away....It has been a long time since I stayed up this late, but today is the caffein effect.2 more months 2 moe.OMG~!A new life gonna start...what is in for me?Oh boy I really dun want to think about it.I'll do my best and aim on the degree.I must have confidence that I can do it and do my parents proud.I want the degree for myself and nth else.I mean it's for my own gd and just want to learn more....Learning is a never-ending process.It just dwell on me I might not do well for my practicum but I'm just being a worrywart, it hasnt even happened yet.How can I be so sure of it?I must believe in my myself and have confidence that I have the capability for the long way that I have come by and it's happening for a reason.I have a lot to improve now.....especially in a year from now.I have higher expectations of myself when I turn 21.I know it will be different as my parents grow old,as my bf takes a different route in life,with responsibility as a teacher..............This is life! What you want and achieve in life depends solely on you~! Always remember you have the capability to do what it takes.The same applies for me!

2006-05-23T19:33:00.000+08:00

"Hi ya, mate?!" I'm blogging au Australia right now.Brisbane is a peaceful and fun place!! =) It's rather quiet at the neighbourhood, I understand why many S'poreans are coming to Australia to retire.I did a lot of shopping!!! Clothes....accessories...and not forgetting scrapbooking stuff.Been having lots of fun each day!=) Keke....Oh yeah, this break came just in time after working so hard.I will want to visit Australia again!! And have I mentioned that I'll be taking the plane alone back to S'pore?It'll be an experience for me.*pray hard that i dun get blur* Lol...

Will make my trip scrapbook pages before school starts and look out for courses to attend before I become a 24/7 gf after leaving out my bf in my busy working schdule.Most importantly to spend more quality time with you-know-who before NIE starts to occupy my time.Till then,ciao~! I cant believe I'm starting teaching as a working life in about half a year's time!

And most importantly, I'm turning 21 soon.
P.s: I finally understood why my dad doesn't allow me to stay away from home for so long.He hopes I'll always remain as his little girl and stay close under his wing.Sometimes we never appreciate our parents but when they are gone, it'll be too late u know?

2006-05-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

As I grow up day by day, I realise how ugly the world can be.And it makes me even treasure and hold the things and people dear to me,closer to my heart.

2006-05-04T13:04:00.000+08:00

I'm finally back to blog.A BIG "HELLO" to you.Life is pretty busy, caused by me.Good and bad either way.Very busy, holding on 2 jobs...Think holding onto 2 jobs will make my time more well spent I suppose.Everything is fine...just fine...nth much..been meeting friends after work,sometimes rush off to my next job.WOW huh?Haha...btw I'm not earning big $!! I'm planning to go Aust. in mid May.Yipeee~~! Think later in the holidays I'll start to pick up some new skills say guitar, netball empiring, etc.Okie, that's all for now.I just extracted out my 4 wisdom, good experience...Hehe...My cheeks swell like a chipmunk...balloon.:PI'm ok le...And I was ALMOST crowned prom queen..1 of the 4 selected ones.Couldn't believe it when they called my name, stay put in my seat until they repeated a few more times.That's all for now.Tata!!

P.S: My tummy is getting bigger=I'm getting fatter.

2006-03-28T00:06:00.000+08:00

Hi, just in case u are wondering where CRYSTAL girl have disappeared...I FOUND A JOB, just when I almost lost hope in getting a job at a cafe u know? The bottomline is to never lose hope!

HeeZ~!

Life is great....I graduated with good grades ending with a "+". The bottomline is I have graduated, a step nearer to my dream to be a home economics teacher. Just a sudden thought...Your pay in teaching is never enough, because it is priceless :) . I miss Kim Yao, I wonder how my smart little boy is doing....That day his cousins saw me at the train station from some dist. away. I was wearing glasses but they spotted me and stopped at the path. They were so happy. I never knew they would be so happy. Children are lovable, cute, innocent and full of amusement.

I'm still me....Still growing up, I'm now 1.64m. Hahaha...:P I'm growing mentally too.I may be emotional but u never know how strong I can me.I'm going to be responsible for my students, my family, my friends. I'm Crystal-the invincible! :P I'm still counting my blessings everyday and it's countless......I am thankful for everything in my life. My dad, mum, sis, a roof above my head, people in my life, my work and not forgetting my boyfriend.I guess I'll end here.....May my zest continue~!

Looking back -----3 years have passed since I was a school girl. I have developed a fashion sense, no matter how nerdy I look sometimes.I'm the ........Ms Cheng the students know of. I have grown.....most importantly.Let's have faith for the future~!

2006-02-26T01:20:00.000+08:00

This weekend is sucky...Haha...but luckily the pillar of support knocked that thinking out. This coming friday is the long awaited trip with my classmates cum famil too.What a lucky girl right?Having the best of 2 worlds.*count my blessing* Looking on the bright side even though sewing is due on Monday and I'm not done yet.Things will be fine.Busy Sunday ahead.I'm gonna turn in soon!!Everything will be over on Monday!YEAH!! YIPEE!!I wanna scream out loud!!

!CON-GRADUATION TO ME!

2006-02-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

Hey!! My exam is over! Cool~! :) As for Alicia who is still persevering, JIA U!! I bought a dress for my D&D....if ever a chance I will put it up online on blog.A lot of things are following up in my life. Top of the list is to finish my sewing assigment.So exam is not really over in a way...Graduation trip will follow up by looking for a job. Keke....So happening right? I know~!! It's so good to be alive and that we only live once on earth.

Recently I came across this very special candy given by my design lecturer.When u eat it, it's initially bitter and then it will turn sweet.She compared it to LIFE.She's right, life can be bitter sweet.Some memories are so bitter yet when you look at it at a postive light, it's quite amazing how sweet it can be.

Alrighty, stay tune for my slacker life!! Laugh out loud!

Afterword for the blog:

Suddenly I felt ugly today. Confidence hit rock bottom and I felt that I have so much to improve on :Be it character-wise / knowledge-wise. Yet when I read my testimonials, I realise my presence on earth has some significance. In conclusion I will persevere on...and end with a conversation with my care person.

Dr Vijaya: I believe you have a paper for tmr.

Me: Yah, ND paper was just over.But I don't think I'd be able to get a B which I was aiming for.A lil' diappointed.

Dr Vijaya: U know crystal...When I was a student, I never looked back on a paper once it's over. I think you shouldn't too. It's over, focus on the next paper.

Me: Yeah..I understand....

Dr Vijaya: Crystal, you know I have seen your confidence increase over the past 2 years. Continue and I am very sure you will do well.

Me: *touched* Thank you, I will.

It's always the belief that keeps me going.One day if I were to ever lose passion for teaching, I will never lose the belief for my students, for it is this BELIEF that made me what I am today and I am thankful for it.

2006-02-19T16:14:00.000+08:00

3 more days to exam...It's a torture.In exchange I havent seen yk for the past 3 days and I'm not gonna be so for the whole week. This is love I guess...Haha...ok, I'm still concentrating on my exam just that I'm so tempted to go walk ard...blah blah. I have decided to escape to the library later in the evening, at least i can conc. there.May exam end soon with flying colours and fun following....It will be.I promise myself.I have come so far....I'll make it.

2006-02-15T00:45:00.000+08:00

Hi!! I'm back to ramble on my blog for a little while before I focus on my exam again.*Side tracked a bit* I'm still working on my sewing where the 2 items will be due on thurs.So fast..it's Wednesday already. Next week will be my exam.So near yet so far.Oh my god, time is passing by faster than I know it wld be.

Pretty stress about exam. All the "What if" start circling in my thoughts and doesnt seem to leave no matter how hard I try. And I'm so into fried food these days. I feel like going on a binge u know.But I try my best to be healthy. I bought an egg salad and papaya for my snack.I havent been meeting the 2 fruits requirement.

V-day went by just like this.A pretty normal day with my bf in camp. Dinner with Faezah and I managed to meet my bf in the end. His excercise ended early. Curious to know what I got for V-day? I'll keep u in suspense!! Haha!! =) I have so many things to do after exam.

Top on the list is.....

Wisdom tooth extraction
Scrapbooking
Get a job
Slack
Slack
Slack
Read
Tidy up notes
Do housework
Catch up with friends
Organise a pri school meeting
To be continued.

Chao people....Off I go to do my sewing!

2006-02-05T22:38:00.000+08:00

hEY , HERE i am again....So long since i've blogged.
New year came by and went. Project with some obstacles passed by too. So far so good.....I still have high expectations of myself.And upset when I can't meet it but cool when u know u have a pillar of support. *Counting my blessings and the calulation is till on going* I just wanna keyboard my thoughts before the exam arrives in 2 weeks.

Dear Crystal(Chungui),

The English name I got for myself when poly started to make everything for my friends sound easier when they pronounce my name.A new identity came along with it as well. But I'm still the same old chungui, one that has grown over the past 3 years. The Crystal in poly doesn't always perform well academically.But looking at the overall she has tried to balance academically and socially, not forgetting in other areas like fashion and relationship.Results could have been better but .....It's all too late to comment now except to compensate by working harder in NIE.

3 years have passed and I have found the passion I almost lost when I started poly. I even have a goal to be a teacher for the rest of my life.To have a form class who comes into class to teach them abt moral education, to love and support them. I will never lose hope in my students for my teachers have always believed in me, my potential.I'm not the best, but I will put in my best. It's a contrast.I will be a role model for my students. "I NOT STUPID 2" has been an enriching movie for everyone.For teachers, it has taught me

Beliving in your students will either break or groom them.
To be a burning candle guding them along and never lose the flame
All students are special
Teachers should always reflect
Teachers should never give up on them
Teachers should maintain themselves so as to be a reference for the students
Teachers should always keep their cool no matter how angry they are

I will aim to achieve all these....As for the next 2 weeks, I'll work hard and give all I can for the exam. I know I can because I am Crystal a.k.a chungui. I'm my dad's daughter, my sis's sis, Mrs Quek as my mentor, my teachers' student, graduate to be from CST, yao kuang's gf, Rufhie's junior, ......There is absolutely no reason for me to fail. I have their support.No matter what, the best is yet to be and perseverance is my maiden name.Only to live up to it then I can show my students how much I have been through and they can too.There is something in me to believe in something or someone greater.I can be more than what I want to be

2006-01-20T00:28:00.000+08:00

It's 4 more weeks to exam.My god, i can't believe it.I'm sure the next 4 weeks will pass by in a flash yet right now at tis moment, it seems like a snail crawling...... Exam is coming!! On the 22nd and 23rd Feb.Wish me luck!!

Now I'm starting to doubt whether I can achieve my desired grades.I have been encountering problems with my project mate, also a close classmate. I know we are still close friends but I don't like her working attitude. This is life I suppose.There's I have started my embroidery design on the shoes, I am sure it will turn out to be a pair of priceless shoes

a more uglier side sometimes.Good luck to my seniors who are starting their attachment soon!! I can't wait for my turn, I had a wonderful attachment experience at Hong Kah sec. Praying hard that I get posted there and even if I don't, it just expose me to another working environment.I finally got a laptop after so long...hehe...I love my laptop, carry it almost everyday to school.I arranged the icons in a heart shape in conjunction with the upcoming V-day. *smiles*

I'm starting to plan for activities after graduation.It'll be a short holiday trip follow by a dental surgery most probably. Maybe start working at a cafe and go for short English phonetics course and netball empire course.And of course I hope to do more scrapbooking which is such an expensive hobby.

Meanwhile I aim to get rid of procrastination to continue to work toward better grades. I know I can do it and I'm not ready to give up until I give all that I've got.I'll only get to live once. NEVER SAY DIE~!

2006-01-14T21:32:00.000+08:00

I got a laptop recently!! So glad. It's NEC. :) yIpEe~! It has very good specifications and apparently Alicia's dad commented it's a smart move.Thanks to my sister. My birthday is over...:) I have uploaded the pictures in my friendster.Feel free to check it out.I had a memorable day once again. Two days before my birthday, my classmates had a celebration for me.It was a surprise but backfired becos' I found out and they accidentally spilled the beans when keeping the tissue paper for the cake. I got a water bottle, a test tubee vase, a star decoration for my table and a music box and also a pretty notebook from them.

Saturday was also a fantastic day. I met up with an old friend for lunch, gave me a treat. Bid goodbye....and followed by meeting up with my friends from sec school. :) I had a great time. I feel so lucky.I received special presents like clinique perfume which is for the grown up me. A carebear balloon for the kid-ish me as well as chocolates with a fresh sunflower in it.I love all my presents really.

5 more weeks to graduation. I'll do my best!! Not to worry. :)

2006-01-06T23:25:00.000+08:00

Roughly about half an hour before the time strikes midnight, which marks the birth date, age 20.But....I'M NOT READY YET.I still feel like a teenager.There is still some uncertainty in me with many things in life.But I know I'm doing fine.

I've overcome the fear of not graduating in time.I shall just do my best and let the rest fall in place. So far so good! I've even gotten an "A" for my recent sewing assignment.Way to go and I'll continue to work hard and do my best.YEAH!!! =) That's the way right?

20 already.I'll still continue to make goals for myself and achieve them. I know I can do it!! Despite the obstacles ahead, I'll make sure I leap over them even if it means I might hurt myself in the midst.I know my responsibilities will increase as a student, a gf, a daughter, a friend, a teacher. =) These are the roles I'm gonna undertake and I have no doubts.

Happy 20th Birthday to me!

I'm Crystal, a typical poly student but being a sister of Cheng Soon Boey, a daughter of my parents and having such supportive friends.....I'll make the best out of year 2006 just like I have for 2005. *Cheers*

2005-12-04T02:15:00.000+08:00

I teared a little just now...I wasn't suppose to but the hormones are kicking in so that explains the roller coaster ride mode.The fighterpigs celebrated Alicia's belated birthday today.We went to settlers' cafe to play board games.I have this feeling it is gonna be our hangout place soon.The staff there are very friendly, approachable and helpful. It crossed my mind out of a sudden if my friends will remember my birthday next year.Just a passing thought....It's just that and I just decided not to say anything else....Haha...We will see how it goes.Every now and then, I'm thankful for what I have in my life.I am glad....I have family and friends who are around me who supports me.Without them, there wouldn't be me.

I'm already 19 years old.It seems like yesterday that I'm still a Primary 6 student, a average "O" level student who knew what she wanted in her life, a 16 year old girl who fell in love for the first time and now a tertiary student who gets paid to study with parents growing old and I appreciate them more than ever as I see them ageing as each day pass by with a boyfriend whom I know will accept my career and support me, loving me the way I am.

I really can't wait to turn 21.New goals in life, more responsibilities...and whatever that may be coming by.As for the next few months: I won't be giving tuition to Kim Yao anymore as the mother found him a full time tutor.This is a blessing so that I can then concentrate on my studies.I'll be focusing on my assignments and school work and spending my weekend with my boyfriend.I'm still learning to be organised.It takes a long long time for me to learn but with perseverance I know it will take me there.Have faith!! I can survive this semester.Like my boyfriend says :" U have survived the past 5 semesters.I'll be there and when u're stressed, just repeat my name 3 times". How naive but there is some special touch in naivety. ;) And so we shall see....

2005-11-30T23:01:00.000+08:00

This is the picture of my designs and my models. :) *Cool* Update more in time to come...

I'm back for an update!! School is stressful.....I don't want to go into more details cos' it stresses me out thinking abt it. >.< style="color:#99ff99;">Rufhie, I read ur update on ur blog. :) Thanks for everything.I just want to say each time I think of TP, I wun ever forget you cos' u really lighten my load in TP. *HUGS* And Grace, don't ever give up cos' that's the characteristic of us!! We may feel down and despair but each time, it just make us STRONGER.Yeah?Boyfriends are there to support us and bring out the best in us! So don't ever feel that u're a load to your bf.

Yk and I are getting along fine.Very fine.....And recently I found out that my other best friend, Lilian, is attached too!! =) Yk...Each time I think of him, I can't be happier that he came by.I see myself in him, the little things that he does mean so much.It may be too early to judge but we'll let time tell.What else can I update? I have much to say yet feel loss for words....I cant wait to finish this sem yet I feel that I'm never going to make it. >.< Is this the feeling of a graduate to be?

2005-11-20T22:52:00.000+08:00

3rd week of school....Everything is starting to roll in...going faster and faster...Everything is still under control or rather what it seems to me so far.I can't wait to mit Rufhie this Wednesday!!Havent done mouth exercise for a long time liao...Nth much t0o blog..bye bye!!

2005-11-16T00:03:00.002+08:00

Donna Lewis- At the beginning

We were strangers,
starting out on a journey
Never dreaming,
what we'd have to go through
Now here we are,
i'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you
No one told me i was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When i lost hope, you were there to remind me
This is the start

And life is a road that i wanna keep going
Love is a river, i wanna keep flowing
Life is a road,
now and forever, wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is throughIn the end i wanna be standing
At the beginning with you
We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

And life is a road that i wanna keep going
Love is a river, i wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end i wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Knew there was somebody, somewhere
Like me alone, in the dark
Now i know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart
And life is a road that i wanna keep going
Love is a river, i wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end i wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Yeah

Life is a road that i wanna keep going
Love is a river, i wanna keep going on
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road that i wanna keep going
Love is a river, i wanna keep flowing
In the end i wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

2005-11-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

Today wasn't a smooth day. I chose my attitude. :( Just wanna feel angry with myself...or not exactly angry...Our project consultation for Community Nutrition didn't go well. We didn't really meet the expectations. >.<>

When I reached home I accidentally knocked down my fav. vase which was a test tube and broke it.At that point, all my anger vanished. Teenage mag has a pic of my designs for the jeans.Looks good. However I was disappointed there was no picture of the designers especially when we waited for a long time for the photoshoot.One of the designers who was also the model took quite some time to arrive when the rest of the designers were already there. U cant really expect your efforts to pay off all the time I guess. Oh well, when a door closes, another opens. =) *Cheers*

Transition stage of a 19 year old signing off.....No matter how lost I am, I know peseverance will get me there.

2005-11-14T20:19:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK!!! My internet connection is back and I hope it lasts me till next March. :) Cos' I don't think I'll be able to get a laptop anytime soon.Mt dream seems far but I'll be holding on.2nd week of school....So far alright...Nice lecturers it all seem.Too early to judge but project mates seem pretty cool for a combination.I'll see how it goes I guess.Last semester already, so eager to break a record for the best semester results. And 2 subjects are open book papers. >.< It looks like I have no reason not to score.

Meanwhile I have been reminding myself about my results for this semester.And it was even more encouraging when I haven't mention this to my boyfriend but he reminded me that my work is more important when I decided not to meet him today.People thinks this is just the start which is why everything seems lovey-dovey.All I want to say is let's just let time show.

I got back my SIP report and my Consumer Resouce Management.For attchment it's definitely a "wow" experience even up till now.SIP has been locked in my memory box and now that I remnisce about those times, I can't help but amaze myself that I actually went through all these.So unbelievable! And I got a B for my CRM report! OMG, I haven't seen a B for a long time. Effort put in does not equal to actual results.

I've uploaded most of my fashion show pictures on friendster.U can go take a look if u want. =) I look forward to days in NIE.Being 19 used to seem so far away for me however now it seems so magical.I look foward to years ahead as I've learnt a lot this year and I'm sure this will continue the same for me for the upcoming years. *Cheerios* May I always remain true to myself and whatever not.

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2005-11-08T12:38:00.000+08:00

This is the first week of school, 2nd day. :)I can't forsee what's gonna happen but I will need a lot of perseverance and encouragement.I've received my 1st project from community nutrition..as for others, it's still pending...Good luck to me and may things go ur way...logging off..:)Tatata...I miss my seniors!

2005-11-01T21:12:00.000+08:00

Alright, I have sort out my thoughts and decided to share the good news with everyone. :) I've been attached for a month plus....:) He's the pillar of my support and I believe there is more to come.A guy where I can just keep silent with when I'm tired and not worry about him cos' he understands.And both of us appreciates the beautiful silence.

And most importantly he understands that I'm busy and never doubt me.That's the most impt. attribute a teacher has to look for in a boyfriend/husband to be.Everyone is supportive of this relationship and I feel so loved....He has really proven himself over the past months of a blossoming friendship.When I look at him, I m so amazed about how we met, progress to what we are now.It's the little things that mean so much...I haven't forgotten my promise about how I won't get attached before NIE.But he came along and swept my heart away...with his concern, patience, thoughtfulness and many more...Thus he's worthy of me breaking my promise.

As the days passed, I can only count my blessings....I believe Alicia and Jerard is feeling the same way now.May we stand strong with our partner and keep the faith.Let's look forward to the many months and years ahead...*grins*

Thanks Lishi, for the photos u took for the both of us...the support when u came to the fashion show....

2005-10-27T14:42:00.000+08:00

Hi people!!
*BIG WAVE*
I'm sorry I went missing for a while.I was busy preparing for my jeans segment for the S'pore fashion youth fiesta held at Paya Lebar Post Centre last weekend.Many of my friends came to support me. :) I had lots of fun.I'll post up the pictures here if possible if not u can go friendster to check it out. So many things happened that I don't know where to start blogging.Shld I keep to myself or shld I type everything out?I don't know...*Confuse* Eager to share with some of u my joy yet feel that I shld hold back certain things.

School's gonna reopen in less than 2 weeks time.1 last semester to put in my best.And soon I'll be starting a new chapter in my life with work following after poly and a year in NIE.I'm sure life is going to be even more hectic like hurricane yet looking beyond, I'm sure there will be many wonderful memories to treasure.

2005-09-21T16:51:00.000+08:00

Just a quick update...

Life has not taken on a slower pace ever since exam ended.Just like how people say the world will not stop for anybody.So let's head forward together even though as times we feel as if we're lagging behind.Just remember that you're not in it alone.Just like how lonely I felt during the past months.I haven't realised it was just that I had a lot of people who loves me a lot, just that we're busy in our own ways that we do not stop to realise that.

I found a job after exam.Quick huh?Hehe...I didn't expect that.The days are as tiring as school days but one thing for sure is that I can't be any happier.If u know what I mean.I'm happy working, keeping myself busy and I LIKE WHAT I'M DOING.Just an emphasis, not shouting at u yeah?I hope it stays the way it is..:) Just like when I start teaching.I'm sure the tiredness is worth every bit.

Meanwhile I've been busy with the S'pore Fashion Week, my jeans will be showcased. I didn't make it known to everybody because I have my hesitance in it.It's a lot of work.I hope everything goes well and may my perseverance gets me there.This is a whole new experience for me.A new exposure.I don't know how things will be going but I know I'll make it there, yeah~!

I have a news to release soon.Hehe...In abt a month's time, so keep urself updated.Meanwhile Crystal is busy doing her stuffs and I really enjoy what I'm doing now..I feel time is well spent and every minute is very precious to me. *hugs to all of u reading*

Lots of love and care for my friends,
CrystaL a.k.a Chungui

2005-09-06T00:04:00.000+08:00

It has been 3 weeks since I blog.This is the longest time I've stopped blogging I guess.Holidays have started. Yipee!! I'm sure it can't been any better even though my body feels like breaking down yet I'm determined to type an entry.I'm on the verge of getting a sore throat. There is still 5 months before I turn 20.I'm not hinting anything...Just want to think back on this year.It has been indeed eventful with many lessons to learn. I have this little wish that by the age of 21, I will have a bf to celebrate a part of my birthday with me.But I guess just let nature takes its course. I'm gonna be 20 next year.I'll just keep it a hush hush and wait and see who will ask me out.Even if it means being alone, I'll still be happy.

I fell in love with this quote from the latest precious moment collection that says "I picked u to love".I seriously wish that my future bf can give it to me even though I have this urge to get it for MYSELF which is totally meaningless if I do so. I played a trick on my friend today and felt very apologetic even though it went fine.Sometimes I feel so bad being a devil yet being an angel at times can be hard.I suppose that's the way most people percieve me as.

My classmates and I hang out together at Marche and Ikea today.But I didn't really enjoy myself.I feel that people belittle me which is not the way I am.They see me as immature but I know I have more depth than what they think.Argh! I don't like to be misunderstood.I guess I'll just be myself and let others discover for themselves.

2005-08-20T11:13:00.000+08:00

It's been some time since I last blog.Sometimes I have the urge to pen down the thoughts yet ocassionally I hold the urge that I lose it.Confidence takes a head down with the risotto rice I cooked yesterday.Yet again it dwell on me if I was trying to be humble. (o.O) It striked me that I should have accepted the praises with grace.

"You gave me a shake in the head telling me it wasn't awful".

But I suppose cos' the risotto rice wasn't my type of dish cos' of it's distinct taste. Advance Food Preparation practical exam is on Monday.Our trial run was sucessful, couldn't have been better. Jan's tomato soup was superb, Fae's dish yummy and May's apple crumble was crumble-licious. My grandma is well known for the apple pie and chicken pie.Yum~! It's time I go for a lesson. I had this urge when my dad told me to do so when I let him try my chicken pie.

It seems that everyone seems to stop blogging. I'd say blogging opens myself up to the differenet view people have and allows me to be in constant touch with my friends' lives when we don't often keep in touch.So many thoughts are in my head yet no idea where to start.

As for my love life, it is still a question mark.Nobody knows if you don't try.Yet again how can u TRY falling in love when u don't even understand the opposite.Yes, I know it takes a lifetime to understand someone but some basic foundation should be there I guess.The consqeuence of falling in love without knowing the person well is........getting over it in the snap of ur fingers and suffer the drawback of the scar left behind.

LOVE: I BELIEVE IT WILL COME WHEN I ENTER NIE.Let's just wait patiently for the time to come instead of looking around for it.For now, let's just enjoy watching the lovey-dovey couples and let out a happy sigh and whisper to ourselves :"Love is indeed amazing".

2005-08-12T22:26:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps,on this normal Friday, I've fallen sick again.Once a week since last week.It's sorethroat and fever.Yikes, didn't expect this.I'll take care, not to worry. Alicia is sick too.I guess we're not sisters but twins le.Fall sick at the same time. (0.O)

I went to watch Charlie and the chocolate factory with the marshall from my pri. school for national day.Hehe...It was a good date.I was so worried we didn't have much to talk cos' we din have common friends and it's like we're complete strangers despite sms-es exchange.I guess my friends are right...Aiyah..crystal can make conversation with anyone.I just gotta have more confidence in myself and c myself the way they see me.I wonder if love will blossom...but I guess there's more to discover abt each other. It has been a long time since I felt this way about a guy since Jian Wen. Haha...just told Alicia about this part.She didn't comment much but I guess Alicia thinks it's too fast yah? I'll bear in mind.He touched me when he told me that he'll be there catching me if I fall.A simple thing yet it means so much eh?That's me. It's the little things that happen along the way that mean so much.Nellie commented that I'm high maintainance gf material and that I'm hard to woo but I never felt this way about myself.Perhaps in some way but I don't expect my b4 to b ard me 24 hours.I just need to know he is safe and sound.My friend told me I'm easily won over.I just need a honest guy who's sincere about me.I'm not boasting about myself in any way here k?Those who have my blog add are my close friends whom I'm sure wouldn't think this way about the crystal a.k.a chungui they know.

May told me how it was a mistake that her bf and her got together.They were together pretty fast, weren't even sure...but it was a beautiful mistake.They were doubtful about how it will fast but they have been together for almost 4 years. :) I like to hear little stories about her bf and her, and I think she likes telling me about it too.Cos' I'm always reminding her or rather going gaga about their love for each other.I always point out sweet little things that her bf does and she sees my dreamy look.

Li ping updated her blog...she felt disappointed.It reminds me of how I felt sometime ago.I realise that when I do something for others, it's not anything that I expect in return.But I do expect people to appreciate what I've done for them. I guess that's the only thing.
I have a new email add. crystalperseveres@gmail.com.Hehe...:) suits me perfectly huh?wanted to use crystalcheng but not available...din think of crystal.cheng but i guess this email is meaningful but long.* giggles*

K, that's all for the blog.Oh yah, btw I hope Zhi sheng u're feeling better from ur cough.Is my method of cough mixture a good way?U drink more water and the rest of my peeps too! Take care!!Teachers' day is on the way..can't wait to c Mrs Quek and write the msg for her.Hehe...The upcoming weeks are going to be hectic...Jia u for me!! My seniors too!! Let's find happiness in the midst of busyness!

2005-08-06T20:24:00.000+08:00

Hey, I'm here to blog once again.I never really understood why people put lyrics on their blogs until u actually spend time reading the verse of the lyrics.Each has a story to tell. I have a song which I wanted to post it up:

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

--------Welcome to my life; Simple Plan

Don't worry...I'm not in a bad mood yah? I can't! I realise it's only a test of perseverance and surely a teacher can go thru that can't I?Haha...It's the sunflower season now, where all the sunflowers are extremely bright!! I'm a crystallic sunflower~!! Shine sunflower shine!!

May asked me why I was so keen to get a carebear....She was the only one who asked...And I told her .....it was because I wanted a carebear to care for me as I felt there was no one ard to care for me. How pathetic. *AwW...* That's how I felt.And I wanted a carebear to be there to remind me to care constantly.Now I don't need it anymore, or rather I can wait till Christmas. *Grins* And how some people can come into my life and things that happened along the way that tells me they care and love me for who I am.

2005-08-04T10:49:00.000+08:00

HEY!! My sis who is on holiday at Switzerland told me she got me a pair of Addidas sandals.That's not all!! The happening thing is....She got me a pair of Briekinstock sandals. Oh My God! Never in the world have I imagined owning that. I'm not a branded kind of person. The only thing I wanna own is a Christin Dior Handbag...cos' it's pink and it looks so delicate. :) But not very keen...Maybe when I get my first pay or sth. But it's so costly to get 1 and I don't think it's a good gift to buy using my first pay.I would rather spend a sum of $ to get many many things. :)

Thanks Alicia for that pic! :) It's very very pretty...But I can't put it up on friendster....:) *HUGS* Thanks...it'll made my day!

2005-08-03T22:36:00.000+08:00

Hehe... :) I know why my mood has improved!! I pass by the florist just now. I think it's the season for big sunny sunflowers.They were blossoming and shining brightly like sun. Oh My! I had this urge to buy 1 that seemed to be smiling and telling me to be strong but I think it's enough just viewing them.Hehe...I'm not trying to hint anything here k?

My next aim is to get a vase enough to hold a sunflower without toppling and also planting 3 sunflowers in a pot. They will be blossoming beautifully on my balcony.Wahaha...and then I'll take pictures of them.Sounds good right? Exam time table is out.My one and only paper is on 5th Sept.But the week before there will be tests. Yikes! I'm so not looking forward to it. I don't wish to screw it up thus I know what to do. I can't wait to start 2nd semester of Yr 3. Time seems to be passing by faster than what I expected eh?Next semester's modules seem interesting but I bet it's gonna be tough.

I went to school today, compiled our report.Most of the credit goes to May in compiling. I collected the notes for my class, wrote everyone's names. I like the responsibility of being a class rep. :) I have been waiting for this opportunity.It's finally here. May complimented that I've been doing a good job. (o"o) I share sentiments too.I enjoy doing this for the class...even though $ wise can be a hassle.

I've been procrastinating my designs for the fashion week. It's time to get started.Tata!!

2005-08-03T00:46:00.000+08:00

This is the 2nd time I log into blogger....I was at a lost to what I should write just now so just didn't type anything. I'm back to my old self le.I have learnt how to let go of doing badly and disappointed that I haven't reach my standards in studies.I'll just do my best and let the rest fall in place.As simple as that. :)

My seniors are busy and can see that they are a little stress about NIE. I guess NIE is another higher level which is a test for my perseverance in becoming a teacher. I went to approach my lecturer for room for improvement.She reminded me of other components whereby I still have chance to do well and there's still room for improvement. I have put in effort in the AFP project. I hope that my team mates can see it. As for FPQA problem base learning, I must buck up!

Today I dreamt a little about my 21st birthday party. I can forsee many close friends coming to my birthday and giving me special presents chosen especially for me. It's gonna be such a big birthday bash. Oh my god...I can see perfect things that I'm afraid it might not up to my standard. It'll be good to have a boyfriend around on my birthday, but if I don't, I'm sure I will enjoy myself just the same. I can picture a young lady with long healthy straight hair....in a pretty dress and surrounded by her close friends who are there to share the joy of her turning 21.2 more years. :) It's gonna be fast. I thought 19 would never come but now I'm half way being 19.Oh my god...the youth is disappearing soon. Being 19 would be one of the most wonderful years.I'm sure being 20 would be the same too. May I turn into a well-groomed and well-expressed young lady.

I met my ex pri school mate yesterday and took the train together. She was so amazed that I already have students at the age of 19. Indeed it is. We're such a lucky batch of people in this prestigious course.We have a lot of previlege that other do not have.I'm already earning a living for myself.I'm getting paid while studying. I'm gonna be a teacher for life!I have a lot of things that most teenagers do not have,or rather young adults.How can I not be confident of myself.

Crystal, look straight ahead and work towards your goals!
Hurdles have been crossed.There's more to build up the strength in me. I have no doubts about these.

2005-08-01T21:02:00.000+08:00

Today was like another set back. I got a D+ for my AFP Part 2 experiment.Amd it is supposed to be my "O" level question. Alicia, to think that I had yours for reference.Oh my god!! I have done so badly.Or to rephrase, not up to my expectation. I'm having an headache, thinking it would recover but it hasn't.Not after a nap. I'm feeling a bit lousy about school.

But each time I do so, there are little things which happens that keep spurring me to go on. It's Perseverance I guess. Like hearing 2 of my favorite songs : Hong Qing Ting by Xiao Hu Dui and Zui Dong Ting by Fang Zu Ming.And a present from Jerard. I know it's not time to give up yet. I'm 3/4 there to seeing the rainbow!

2005-07-31T23:55:00.000+08:00

The last day of July was spent with Jerard, the afternoon and evening to be exact. Thanks for the gift. It is a mouse in a bottle of grains. Sounds familiar? It has to do with the recent hit song call "Lao Shu Ai Da Mi". And it can play music. How cool can that be? So cool that I can do without my carebear liao. Thisis just one thing that keeps me going in friendship. Haha..I got flowers too! :) And the type which doesn't wilt.Cos' it's plastic. Dun laugh k? I appreciate the thought of it though. It's the first time I got plastic sunflowers.When I start teaching I'll buy a sunflower for myself and if I don't, I'll use Jerard's to replace it. It's the thought that counts.He got the plastic flowers cos' the fresh ones run out. Anyway, i'm really not particularabt what flowers are given even though sunflowers are preferable.But actually I'm tired of sunflowers, wanna have people giving me sth else. *HINTING TO ALICIA*We took neoprints as well, it's a memorable day. Who would have thought we would go out after 5 years of knowing each other.We took neoprints as well.Haha..it's been long since I took.

I have learnt over the week that I shouldn't compare and that as long as I've done my best it's gd enough.Like what my msn nick says..I'll do what it takes until I touch the sky.It's doesnt matter about the end results but the process. Perseverance taught me that. Oh yah, we met a lady today at esplanade who was v nice. Had a chat with her and she took another picture for Jerard and me.

I have so many things to share yet dun know where to start. In life as we know more people, we have to be selective abt who gets special previlage and who doesn't.Who's gonna be there for u when u're down and who holds genuine friendship for u.Who wants u to be his girl for who u are and not because u're a potential maid. I told people that I'll remain nice cos' that's the way I choose to behave as that's the way I am.And that if there's a person should take advantage, there should be a limit.When it has reached that limit, *whistle* U're out of my list.If u are still unsure let them go, if it's urs, it'll come back to u.If not, no point being nice. There's no other way I want to be.I guess this is what makes me stand out when this world has its evil side.I heard from Ruth that there are many cute guys in NIE. *CHEERS* hIP hIP hOOrAy!! Haha..but come to think of it, having a bf who's a teacher is boring. May my husband to be not be a teacher but I'll accept what it's gonna be.

Thought of the week: Some things lost, will be lost forever.

2005-07-31T00:15:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps,
this is the 3rd time I'm retyping my blog but I have no anger in me. PATIENCE MY DEAR, Fae always reminds me abt this. I'm sunflower, I'm suppose to be cheery at all times.I met up with Paul, a guy I know from TP's camp. He's attached so dun get the wrong idea. I believe guys and girls can be friends and nothing else. :) He commented abt my confidence and beauty. About how confident he always think I am espcially in photos. The type of girl who knows what to do in all situations. I can onli say I'm still learning and will continue to do so. I hope to reach the level when I turned 21.He asked me why I don't really dress up.And I told him I'd rather people go "wow" when I do rather than trying hard to maintain a pretty image. The beauty is in the eye of the beholder. :) Hehee....

My ex best friend is a finalist for the NEWPAPER NEW FACE contest. I think I'm gonna go support her if time permits even though she wouldn't know. Did I mention that I wanna get a carebear? So unlike me but this time round I wanna get it. :) To remind me that I'm being cared for and that I will continue to care for others. (: Yeah! I couldn't find it.....theone I found in a collectors shop costs $119. Last Christmas it was selling at $20. I'm gonna look for it again this Christmas! :) The suppliers have cut the stock for the time being liao.

Some of my friends have been showing me concern. *touched* One even told me that he/she will be behind me to catch me when I fall. I was touched and smiled to myself when I read that. It's the little things that mean so much. That's what I hope to be like. Doing little things that mean a lot. Not everyone can do that. These days I have to depend on my PC's mood to come online....Haha...:) But it's a good thing for my eye sight I guess.

Upcoming week is busy as well. I think my seniors are too, haven't seen them update their blog.Grace, Ruth, how are u?! :) I'm going on a date with Jerard tmr. A friend I knew for 5 years. Wow!

2005-07-28T00:11:00.000+08:00

A week that is pretty stormy. But I see the good in such gloomy weather.My life is pretty much like the weather.But don't worry, I believe the rainbow is just behind the clouds,It's a matter of time before it appears.

There's lessons tmr and I'm still up.8 am class.I believe that the 2nd part of my week will definitely be better. Happiness is in my hands!In life, I've learnt that there is nothing right or wrong.It's a learning process.It's the expectation we set for ourselves.

My pc is gonna crash soon..I must get a lap top soon!!

*Setback in life will only increase the strength in me*

Jian Wen,

Congratulations in graduating from SP.U've come so far in life. Continue to jia u!!

2005-07-24T19:57:00.000+08:00

5 MORE WEEKS TO EXAM! I'm not a freak k? Just reminding myself. I have to persevere to see the rainbow.1 FI informal report and 1 CRM mini-presentation due, both on same days.Deadlines! Argh! Annoying!!Hahaa...I sound annoyed huh? Dun worry, I'm not. I'll continue to spend time in the library studying. I like the coffee there but at the same time I know it's not good for my health. I don't want to be osteoporotic.

Alicia is back from Thailand!!!Oh boy, do I miss her! Tomorrow is the 1st day for my seniors @ NIE. It'll be my turn next! Muhaha.... I sound boring today.Or rathe I feel boring.K, I'm off to start on my FI informal report. Chao!

2005-07-21T12:00:00.000+08:00

I just burnt a CD on my computor yesterday night. First time.I have this feeling that I'm gonna start burning loads and loads of cds. Hahaa...Just kidding. Where got time. Thanks Alicia, I found a new song I like abt. Collin Raye.It's titled One boy, One girl. I feel that each of Collin Raye's songs tell a story. :) Each song tells a story but I can relate to Collin Raye's songs.

I'll be finishing my assignment on CRM. It's not easy man!! 6-10 Pages but now I'm only like 3 pages....Way to go man! I still have a long way to go. Nonetheless I'll continue to jia u! Ms Mah was very kind, she found a mark for me in my FI paper.It was still a long way to passing but still it gave me some ecnouragement. She commented that I should pass based on how I studied and the way I answered the questions. There is still room for improvement in my answers for the questions.

Meanwhile, I made another new friend. I'm glad that I still have some true friends around me even though I have a big circle of friends. It's hard to have a few good friends and we should be blessed if we have true friends around us.I'm not sure if my blogging will cut down as the semester proceed on with heavier workload.

Enjoy ur Thailand trip Alicia!
Lishi, Jia u in ur assignments. We'll strive on together!!
When u have time, update ur blog k, Jian wen?
Zhi Sheng, continue to strive on in your school work and I'll take good care of myself not to worry!
.....Hi Rufhie and Grace! Have a good start to NIE! I'll make sure that I'll be the next batch to graduate.

Collin Raye - One Boy, One Girl=================================
He finally gave in to his friend's girlfriend
When she said there's this one you should meet
At a crowded restaurant way cross town
He waited impatientlyS
he walked in, their eyes met, and they both stared
And right there and then, everyone else disappeared

But one boy, one girl - two hearts beating wildly
To put it mildly, it was love at first sight
He smiled, she smiled - they knew right away
This was the day they'd waited for all their lives
For a moment the whole world
Revolved around one boy - and one girl

In no time at all they were standing there
In the front of a little church
Among their friends and family
Repeating those sacred words
Preacher said: "son, kiss your bride," and he raised her vail
Like the night they met, time just stood still

For one boy, one girl - two hearts beating wildly
To put it mildly, it was love at first sight
He smiled, she smiled - they knew right away
This was the day they'd waited for all their lives
For a moment the whole world
Revolved around one boy - and one girl

He was holding her hand when the doctor looked up and grinned
Congratulations, twins

One boy, one girl - two hearts beating wildly
To put it mildly, it was love at first sight
He smiled, she smiled - they knew right away
This was the day they'd waited for all their lives
For a moment the whole world
Revolved around one boy - and one girl

2005-07-18T21:33:00.000+08:00

Today didn't turn out well despite a good start (breakfast) to it.I thought it would be,in fact I had a good feeling. It turned out that I got similiar marks for Food Ingredients (FI) and Advanced Food Preparation (AFP) but I didn't pass. I expected myself to pass you know? After the effort I put in. I'm so reluctant to get Food Preservartion of Quality Assurance (FPQA) now. In fact I was aiming for Bs this semester.

I guess it's just a period of thunderstorm at the moment so I gotta brave through this period! I'll reach my goals!!! It turned out to be a good day when school ended early.I don't know if I should be enjoying but I gave myself a treat to Gailee Special @ Orchard Cine. Over there I met the cashier who always work in JE Lib cafe. I was with Faezah. Next, we dragged ourselves as we were so full to Pacific Coffee @ City Link.

We chilled and did our Consumer Resouce Management (CRM) project. I aim to finish PART 1 of the project due this Friday.It was May's birthday today. We shared and got her a pair of earrings. She loved it and I chose the design!!

To ALICIA: Sorry that I did not keep my promise to take the basic theory evaluation yet. But I haven't forgotten my promise k? I'll catch up when u're away for the Thailand trip.Muhaha....Careful I'll surpass u. I want to pass u $10 to help me get earrings and bracelet @ Thailand k? Take my $ cos' I really want quite a few even though I know u're nice generous to get for me as sovenirs.

2005-07-17T11:46:00.003+08:00

Artist: A Walk To Remember
Album: Mandy Moore & Jonathan Foreman Title:
Someday We'll Know

Ninety miles outside Chicago,
Can't stop driving,
I don't know why
So many questions,
I need an answer
Two years later you're still on my mind
Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart?

Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Did the captain of the titanic cry?
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Does anybody know the way to Atlantis
Or what the wind says when she cries?I
'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time Tonight

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we'll knowWhy Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for youI bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watch the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with meTonight?

Someday we'll knowIf love can move a mountain
Someday we'll knowWhy the sky is blue
Someday we'll knowWhy I wasn't meant for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Someday we'll knowWhy Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll goDancing on the moon
Someday you'll knowThat I was the one for you

2005-07-17T03:15:00.000+08:00

This is my 2nd blog like within 24 hours. I drank a cup of coffee at 11 plus, that explains why I'm so wide awake.It's 3.16am now....the time where Crystal is at the peak of her thoughts. I just went through my friendster...look through new photos my friends updated.I've seen some of my friends who are attached. Haha...I can see a thought forming around ur head.Crystal is all emotional again huh? Nah....I'm not.Love indeed makes the world go round....Love makes all girls go gaa-gaa and lost in a world of sweetness and wonder.

When shall be my turn is a question I'll hold in my heart becos'....SOMEDAY WE'LL KNOW IF LOVE CAN MOVE A MOUNTAIN....This is the lyrics from one of my fav. song....Titled "Someday we'll know" by......I dun remember. An excellent song I can sway to.Maybe I'll look out for the lyrics when I can. I can feel my brain going numb.I wanted to type out my expectations of a bf @ the pt. of being 19....but I'll put it on hold.

2005-07-17T00:01:00.000+08:00

I went for NDP rehearsal with the primary 5 pupils from Shuqun primary school. Initially I didn't want to go but it's a promise. :) Anyway..I had a good time. The parade today was indeed better than the previous. Somehow the atmosphere was different, maybe a change of different school students and that Joanna and Jingquan came along tool. Hehee....And also...there was this teacher who's my type of guy. (o"o) I put his pic on friendster. Not clear at all...but at least u have an idea. It's simply how Jian wen, my ex bf looked like when I first knew him. Later on I knew it's his least fav. hairstyle cos' it makes him look like a little boy.He's tall....skinny...hmm...that's y he nids a home econs teacher.Thanks to Jing quan...found out a lot of things abt him for me. :) Hehe...

And also..I met Jerard! I think it's true that they say people will meet if fated. We met today...Jerard and i knew each other since i was sec 2...that's a total of 5 years plus.I had this feeling I would see him...but yet again i told myself I wun go look especially for him because I promised.Alicia and I went to collect food...and then on the way back I saw this guy who looked like Jerard. I went to read his name tag. W .K. Lee.I went like "Lee Wei Kang". Half correct..went nearer and saw his other tag which had his christian name. JERARD.I went like wow....And i said "hi"....I think it wasn't as bad as what he thought like he'll be all shy...We talked as if we were old friends...and as if we knew for ages...which we did. Who knows that we never met? :) He was chatting with another friend so I just left. My wish has been fulfilled.I'd die without regret. :) Hehee....He's exactly what I saw in the pic lor. This might be the first and only time we met but it's good enough to have a picture of what Jerard is like.

And sth else...I've always wondered how it was like for a guy to ask my no. It happened today...the marshall for Shuqun pri school asked me.But he's younger than me. I gave my no....not becos' I was desperate but because I didnt know what to do..he just said please please...and i was like thinking...he said friends...so....I can choose not to reply.I didn't....:) he asked why din reply and i still haven't replied.Muhaha...He's not my type..cos' he's younger than me!!! And from the character I already know it's different.

2005-07-16T11:10:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my NAFA TEST.I guess it's one of my achievements in TP for the 2.4km run. Initially I was the 1st runner out of all the girls. I'm not THAT fast just my normal pace....so dun think too highly of me.But later on when we were approaching the last 200m, another girl overtook me.As u all know, it's not my nature to compete so I didn't run faster than her.

It's good enough that I was leading most of the time.And that I was no. 32 out of the 1000 people...There were 2 diplomas .....8 classes altogether.My timing was 11min 32 seconds. Not bad seh...:) As for the rest of the stations I did ok...Just hope to pass. =) This is a horrible week...I understand why I do not have double eyelids anymore, that's due to insufficient sleep. I'll shoot anyone even they doubt my level of busyness. I can't believe I spent my term break like this...So many projects and work...I haven't even started on my CRM project due on friday. I'm dead meat! But dun worry...I'm Crystal, and I'll do my best.

Adios!

2005-07-14T12:38:00.000+08:00

I'm now blogging in school...It's raining out there. What a good day to ZzzZzzzzzZZZZ.......... Reminds me of the song "I'm a big big girl in a big big world.....". Today is gonna be a sleepless night.I have things to submit tmr for the fashion week.I miss sleeping. And I miss freedom.Hahaha...

Yesterday was a hectic day. It was Zhi Sheng's graduation day. Congratulations!At the same time I saw Ruth's graduation photos.I'm really happy for them. It'll be my turn next. Oh my god! 3 years,so long yet so short. I love the school's food, the environment, the memories.I'm gonna take lots and lots of photos on my graduation day man!

I had a yummy lunch today. Fish soup with rice. Yum! Nutritious and yummy. Later got tuition...I want to ZzZ on my way home.Alrighty, back to project.

2005-07-12T21:59:00.001+08:00

Don't worry, I'll really be fine.Just nid somewhere to ramble on....

2005-07-12T11:40:00.000+08:00

I AM ANGRY...I'm surprise that when i said these words to myself I do not feel it.I have forgotten how to be angry.Sharks! I have realised that often I have allowed people to take me for granted. My friends is right. I'm really NICE with a fullstop. Nth much to describe me as I'm onli nice, nice and nice. So nice to come as people summon me and leave when people don't need my help.

Only when Crystal get angry did they realise that Crystal do know how to be angry too.Cos' u never see her get angry as she is all smiley all day. Sorry, U ARE WRONG!! I've been disppointed again. It's my fault...to allow people to step on me like a door mat...and leave when they finish using me as a door mat. I'm drown in depression...My classmates are right...always blaming me when things go wrong.Everything is Crystal's fault.

I'm tired of giving so much yet I don't get anything in return.All people can say is "thank you". Telling me that they appreciate is not enough.Pls show some action.I'm a home economics teacher, not a MAID.

Well..don't worry too much..I'll be fine just as u all expect me to be in a while.Nothing serious.

I'm INDEPENDENTLY OWNED AND OPERATED.

2005-07-10T21:52:00.000+08:00

Term test is finally over. We're not into 7 months of 2005.Half a year has passed, how has this year been for you? Completing ur resolutions?I'm into the next half of the year being 19.U know..when I was younger I have always wondered what it would be like being 19.And here i am. =) Let me go into how the 1st half of being 19 means to me.

1.Being 19 means I have more responsibility in terms of housework and parents.
2.Being 19 means I have become more studious.
3.Being 19 means more independence.
4.Being 19 means I must make sure the things I amhappy doing the things I am doing.
5.Being 19 means learning how to appreciate myself even with glasses.
6.Being 19 means spending more time by myself.
7.Being 19 means that I'm learning to be strong, even when everyone is busy with their lives.
8.Being 19 means being single.
9.Being 19 means that I have decided to put studies/career 1st b4 love.This is something which I realise today when I was asked abt it.I never thought this would be my answer, but it was my first thought.
10.Being 19 means it is still a long long journey.The best is yet to be.

Tomorrow is the start of my term break, but let's just say it's the start of projects....Oh yah...I really can't wait for graduation day.I yearn to start NIE asap but at the same time I can't bear to leave TP.3 years ago I made the decision to enter this course.Obstacles I overcome.Enjoyment is the key to my life in TP.I have proven that it has been worth it.Especially to people who thought I must be out of my mind.But I was more sure than anyone that this shall be my career.A career for life.Jerard, welcome back to my life. :)

2005-07-07T19:34:00.000+08:00

My last paper is tomorrow and here I am blogging away. I couldn't concentrate in the library just now. The staff in that cafe can recognised me already. They have been pretty nice. Say "hi" when they see me.One of the staff helped me to pack the leftover potato wedges for me to bring home.It has been a long time since I received such good services. (:

I'm yearning to do well for tmr's paper yet I can't concentrate. I met Mrs Quek today..so happy to see her, ran an errand for a friend. My aunt thinks I'm naive but I think it's a blessing sometimes. I love to look at children with smiles all over their face.So innocent. That's how I wish to be. Innocent.Free from evil. As Singapore progresses, relations between people become more and more complicated. I don't know whether the little things I do for people are worth it but I know it's the little things I do that mean so much. I do it for them to get a smile in exchange and remind myself that sometimes it should the way to life.

2005-07-05T12:08:00.000+08:00

Tommorrow is my first paper. Yikes!! I wonder what is in for me. I've gotten into the momentum of reading even though it's not quite regular due to term test.I went IKEA yesterday. Finally got the laundry bag and dustbin which I've been yearning for. Next are the photo frames. (: Yahoo!!

K..my room has been neater most of the time now.I aiming to improve it.As I grow up, I hope to pick up good habits along the way. Lawrence, my colleague from HKSS said I'm nice. Hahaa...Eyer, I wish to be more than nice.I mean not to him, but to everyone.Nice is a v general word.Everyone can be nice.Growing up is hard but just take it as obstacles u have to overcome will make it easier. Each time you overcome the obstacle, u will realise you grow stronger.

K..I'm going to head off to library soon. I'm aiming to pass the 3 term test so...I'll just do my best and let the rest fall in place. I'm going to make use of my term break next week. Hahaha...Scrapbooking, do projects, train for NAFA, upgrade my room :P, and many many more. CIAO!

2005-06-30T00:34:00.000+08:00

It's pretty late now...I can't get to sleep, decided to do project but couldn't find much info...I've decided to procrastinate till tmr after lecture to do it. My sec school mate kept insisting that I'm attached. Hahaha...good to hear u think so highly of me. But I'm not attached. Sometimes I worry that I'll be left on the shelf, yet some times I can't be more assured that I'll be happily attched one day. The best is yet to be.

Next week is going to be term test. I can't wait.I can't wait to get it over and done with.
I can't wait for term break and go Malaysia to make contact lenses.
I can't wait to finish my projects.
I can't wait to get Bs in this semester.
I can't wait for next semester to come.
I can't wait to do more scrapbooking.
I can't wait for me to graduate.
I can't wait to do my parents proud.
I can't wait to enter NIE.
I can't wait to be a teacher.
I can't wait to be 21.
I can't wait to hold a mini-dorm party on my 21st birthday.
I can't wait cos' I'm impatient.

=) I can do it!!! =) So can u alrighty?

2005-06-27T22:47:00.001+08:00

U-hoo ~~~! ;) It's been a while since I've blogged.Life has been revoloving around studies, school and some personal time. I've adjusted to wearing glasses with confidence. The prettiest of all emits confidence from the heart. It's how u bring yourself.

I'm listening to "Sometimes Love Just Aint Enough". Hahaha...u people must be thinking..Crystal is thinking abt LOVE again.Well...I won't deny. I just keep telling myself there's a time for everything. Oh yah, recently I kept asking myself what I learnt from my previous relationship. I've came up with a conclusion :Seek understanding from each other's point of view. Makes sense right?

I did something today with the hope that my friend will appreciate it. But my friend didn't turn up and neither did my friend knew I brought the CD for him/her.Oh well, sometimes we do things hoping that other appreciate but often we don't get the desired results. I just told myself what matters is my intention. I guess I must learn how to do things without expectations.I'm halfway there already. Especially when I'm going to be a teacher.Students often do not show appreciation and that's when it makes us, teachers feel like giving up. But I think, it's my job. TEACHERS SHOULD HAVE THE NEVER-GIVE-UP ATTITUDE.

Recently this HKSS teacher told me that Mrs Quek mentioned that I'll be a good home econs teacher if I keep my desire. Oh yeah, another expectation I'll live up to.I think some of u might have already know that after attachment I've made another decision which is :I'M GONNA BE A TEACHER FOR LIFE. I wanna try out other jobs too but, most probably I'll stay in this profession.I don't see myself in other occupations.I have yet to tell Mrs Quek, she'll be very happy to know that. Muhahaha...

Meanwhile pimples are popping...busy with assigments and I'm starting to like studying more and more....;)

Disappointment is a part of life.
The more you expect,
the higher the chances of disppointment.
Be contented is the key.

2005-06-19T23:16:00.000+08:00

Since school started life as been stressful than ever.I think I'm really scary when I'm stressed up. Hahaha...I need to vent my anger and release stress...K, I sound scary now. I'm thinking of getting a labtop...gotta save up for the next 3 mths.Perhaps a instalment plan or a laptop within my limit.But not to worry, I know I'll be able to afford 1.This is going to be the hectic-iest week.So many reports due and project too.Year 3 is indeed not easy.Term test is coming, I'm gonna prepare well for it even though it doesn't seems easy.My pri sch teacher always tell me: Just do ur best and the rest will fall in place.I guess I'll just have to do it.I feel so alone....like there's no 1 in the world for me.Dun tell me it's a sign of despression.Hahaha...u people must be smiling.It's CRYSTAL u're talking abt, how can I ever get it.U're right, no matter what, the sun still shines and I'll be still a sunflower.No matter how tough life is, it's a chance for me to grow.

People are like teabags.
To know their strength,
u gotta put them in hot water.

This is gonna be another period I'll share with my students. I was a average student but I'll make it through perseverance!!!!

I hAD A gOOd TimE

2005-06-12T22:47:00.000+08:00

I'm supposed to be @ home studying for the 2 quizzes I have tmr but I made a promise earlier with Alicia to go for our YHSS alumni concert band. And so coincidentally my quizzes fell on the day after the performance.Oh well...I started studying last week. :) I had a good time with Alicia today.

We went to PS, walked around in search of my new pair of sandals. I didn't managed to find one...So we decided to head down to Bugis Junction. And finally I settled on a leather pair which I always have in mind, which is lasting and comfortable.It cost me $25.60 though, after a 20% discount.I hardly buy such expensive sandals. Oh well...

After the concert, we went to Esplanade to have sushi. Yum! =) I was craving for it.As for my junior who's waiting to hav sakae sushi with me, I haven't forgotten our date k? Hmm....We went to marketplace @ Raffles city shopping centre.We bought cookies.My favorite kind.And on the escalator dwn to the mrt, I saw MY EX-BEST FRIEND,Rosalie.

I was quite surprised to see her.I'm glad to see her doing well.She was with her boyfriend.She didn't see me and even if she does, I doubt she can recognise me or call out to me.Well,certain people are onli in ur lives for a period of time.People come and people go.I cannot control who's in my life forever but I'll treasure those memories.

HaHa...It'S aLmoSt ThE eNd Of thE wEeeK

2005-06-10T09:44:00.000+08:00

Today is finally friday.I've been waiting for it to come.All the hardwork for the oast 5 days haven't gone to waste.I've finished my CRM proposal whereas some of my classmates are still slogging away.FPQA was smooth even though I think I didn't do a good job in my peer teaching.Efforts shld go to May.Ms Evelyn Lim said we did an excellent job.I hope this kind of results will continue in my studies. The upcoming week will have 2 quizzes.It's gonna be 1 busy weekend again.

My apologise to those who have been wanting to meet me.I really didn't mean to procrastinate but that the workload has been heavy not including some extra stress from home. No use stressing being 19 is difficult I guess.Nellie commented that I have not been excercising.Quite true...Perhaps tonight I'll go jogging or sth. Tmr evening sounds good too.

I've been feeling even more lonely than before.Not the kind of loneliness of not being attached. But really lonely as in the sense when u need ur friends, none of them seems to be available.But I was glad my pri sch best friend called to cheer me up when I was looking for her frantically.I guess that's part of life.At the end of the day I'm still alone.We came to this world with nothing, and we will leave with nothing.What we have right now is perhaps all a dream but I'll always remember this dream.

It'S tHe ThiRd WeEk -RoLLeR coAstER RIdE

2005-06-08T09:31:00.000+08:00

hEY PEeps, managed to sneak in a short blog.Life is not hectic but I'd say it's busy.I'm slogging away in my sch's PC lab to prepare notes for peer teaching tmr.There wasn't suppose to be school today but...for the sake of the notes, I must strive on!

I met up with the teachers from HKSS, some just graduated from NIE and the rest have been teaching for some time.They commented I look thinner. Hahaha..I didn't realise but it sounds like a compliment.I can't help it I guess.Stress makes me lose weight.Hahaha..and I was wearing glasses and without makeup.That's so opposite of what they say in HKSS where I was well-presented.

Alrighty, life hasn't been so smooth for me.I'd rather say life is like a roller coaster ride and I'm just on the down side.But not to worry as I'm still looking at the bright side.My eyelid is sore, having flu, and I lost a library book.Don't worry, come to worst I still have my scholarship to pay for the book.It's my carelessness.2 quizzes next week.I'm preparing to score well for it.Chao~!

-Back to project-

2005-05-31T20:05:00.000+08:00

This is already the 2nd week of school.Everything is in control or rather I am in control.I refer to the study guide over the weekend and had a clear overview of the week ahead. Sth my classmates were shocked with.It's time I change. Sometimes I feel that what I'm typing in this blog is confusing.But that's how I am feeling I guess.

I'm learning how to be a good student.
I'm learning how to be in control.
I'm learning how to be flexible.
I'm learning how to manage time.
I'm learning how to be organised.
I'm learning how to listen
Most importantly, I'm learning how to grow up.

Being 19 is more confusing than ever.I emphasized on this as I think it is an important turning point.How I'm going to develop as an young adult is more important than how I am as a teenager.

I apologise if any of you feel offended or sense a sudden change to my character.This year is gonna be a year where I'm learning a lot of things about myself.Sometimes I'm just trying to figure out myself.Pardon me if I don't give u some time.School has started and it's a lot lot busier.I'm going to give myself more quality time to spend for myself.

It might be sometime before I update my blog again.

AlL cHaRgEd AnD rEAdY fOr ScHoOl

2005-05-23T12:57:00.000+08:00

hI eVeRyONe!

=) I haven't been blogging for ages. School is starting tomorrow and I'm all refreshed for it. I bought quite a few pieces of clothings from Hong Kong. I can't wait to start school really...I've increased my fashion sense over the 4 days spent in Hong Kong.They are well dressed, in the sense that they are very creative in what they wear.I think being able to outstand with the clothings they are wearing is their aim.

I also got myself a bag which is what a japanese school girl would carry. Hehehe..And also I've been addicted to the HK drama serials in the hotel.And I've also tidied up my room finally...I'm maintaining the neatness, that's the bottomline.

Hey guess what? I heard that Adanan, the student who copied and was caught by me was the top scorer for English paper.I'm not teaching him that topic but it's good to hear that these techinical students are doing well.

THEY ARE NOT HOPELESS U KNOW?THEY HAVE UNDISCOVERED TALENT.

Alrighty I'll end here.Btw my time table looks good with reasonable timing of lessons.Hehehe...:) I can't wait to increase my knowledge in nutrition.

mY nEw BlOg SkIN Temporary

2005-05-13T22:47:00.002+08:00

:) How do u like my new blog skin?I can see you smiling now. Sorry for the days where the entries were hard to read.I was caught by the pastel colours and the purity of this blogskin.This is also the blogskin I searched high and low for when I lost it.I was about to give up when I found it. I'm lucky, for some people some things lost can never be found.

People have been asking what I'm up to these days.I also do not know how to answer.Not that I have a lot of things to do.Life is just pretty much low profile but this is one tough period. I am caught in between being a teenager and a young adult.It's not an easy task. Alright I shall not dwell too much and just be strong. This is just a period of test, when I look back, things are not as bad as it seems.

I received the testimonial from Mrs Quek.It was a short and sweet one.I shall not go into details but the it ended with

"Her friendliness, helpfulness and assuming confidence has enabled her to gain respect of her pupils and colleagues.Soon Kuee will go far in her pursuits as a Home Economics teacher."

Yes! I have achieved my aim which was to do well for my attachment. And for the near future, it'll be doing well for my last year.For this semester, it shall be 0 subpaper. =) I'm so glad that Mrs Quek believes I'll go far in my pursuit in this career.As I grow older, I realise I get lesser encouragement.Most of the time, I can only be there for myself and remind myself that I have to be strong.

I realise that my blog does not have a tag for my peeps to leave msgs thus my blog skin shall be temporary.For the ending of this blog, my parting words are, believing and perseverance will bring you far.

Trying Hard

2005-05-12T12:49:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps, I noe this blogskin makes my blog difficult to read thusI am looking for a skin that I quite like but I lost it.I'll find it back and change the skin asap.Nth much abt me.Back from camp and going to Hong Kong next week.I can't wait!! :) Hahaha...But a lil' financially tight.Hmm...:) Planning to go out later after tuition by myself or just come home to do some work.Oh well...We'll c how it goes.

ON thIS sUnny SAtURdAy

2005-04-30T20:33:00.000+08:00

Elo! :) Today is a peaceful Saturday.I had the whole day to myself. It's always the case: When u have the day to urself, you run out of things to do.When u don't have a day to urself, u have a list of things you wanna do.I guess it's the same for all of us.There's time for everything,so not to worry when u don't get what u want.Cos' it's a matter of time.

I have yet to go to the netball court to do some shooting by myself. When school reopen I hope to study harder.I'm quite excited abt sch. Hehehe...I checked out blogs today but realised most people's are not updated.Hahaha...so I shall do sth out of the norm.I was invited to play pool with my colleague but I'd rather miss it.I'm not good at it.Hahaha...but if i get invited to supper, I won't miss it for sure. K, I'm off to dinner! :) I am going to Botanic Garden tmr.Maybe shall go for a picnic. =)

BLoG bLOg bLOg

2005-04-28T10:07:00.000+08:00

I wanted to blog yesterday @ 2 am+ in the morning but the server was down so...Oh well, I'm back here to blog now.I'm @ Hong Kah Sec now, to visit Mrs Quek.At the same time prepare the file which include the things I've done in HKSS.I can't wait to receive the testimonial from Mrs Quek.I'll treat it as an encouragement for my teaching career. I hope to continue doing my best in this teaching career as an educator.

I stayed up late to do 2 scrapbook pages for Jasmine the counsellor and for the Home Economics Noticeboard.I heard from Mrs Quek some boys tried to steal the pics from the board.They took out the glass and left it hanging there not knowing what to do with it when they had difficulty putting it in place.Hahaha..Mrs Quek tease me for decorating it so well it attracted people to steal it.Apparently they like Evon, one of my girls...They wanted to cut her pic and put it back.I made one page especially for the girls, a message for them.I told them I miss them every Thursday where they have their Home Economics Club meeting.

Hehehe...Grace my twin has been saying teaching is a calling.I never thought of it that way before.She's right, not everybody can be teachers.I'm prepared to stay in this career for good.:) But I'll be a modern teacher.I will continue to upgrade my knowledge and improve myself to keep up with the students and be a souce of information for them. Teaching is my passion and I'll be always looking back and reflect on it.

Tomorrow is the last day for the NIE teachers.Time flies.I took a picture together with them and it turned out pretty nicely.I'll keep it for memory sake, my FIRST teaching experience. As for my blog skin, I understand most of you have a problem reading.I'll try my very best to find another skin or fonts that are suitable for this skin.Pardon me for it.I like this skin a lot as I felt I can relate to this girl...Simple but sweet.

mY nEw BlOg SkIn

2005-04-24T01:18:00.000+08:00

Hey..:) This is my new blog skin.What do u all think? Credits go to Alicia.Sorry that the entries are a bit hard to read.I like this skin a lot...I like the girl a lot and somehow I want it to represent me.This girl seems sad, but I'm not sad okie!! :) I'm a sunflower and sunflowers shine even on rainy days!

~~* SwInG gIrLs ~~*

2005-04-20T13:01:00.000+08:00

I watched "Swing Girls" with Nellie yesterday.She really enjoyed the movie and was laughing loudly..I can see how much she enjoyed it too. I enjoyed the movie very much as well.I appreciated the blue sky at Orchard rd yesterday. Days are stress-free now. I wanted to get earrings at Hereen yesterday but I managed to withstand the temptation and save it for somewhere better. ;)

I took up 2 more tuition kids, primary 3 & 6. They are my friend's siblings.I hope I'll be able to manage them when sch reopens.I am sure I can. Especially when the tuition is on one of the week days and a weekend.And I'll go and study somewhere after tuition. Yes, a great combination. I can forsee myself going out less often when sch reopens.It's time to prioritise.

Sigh! Tmr gotta miss outing with Alicia and having a french manicure for my nails.Oh well, I'll be waiting.

EvErYtHInG HaPpEnS 4 a ReAsOn

2005-04-18T01:05:00.000+08:00

I just found my "REMEMBER" cd, a collection of love songs. Well..I lost it for a long time and found it again,but I lost my "Kings of Convienience" cd...A design school girl introduced it to me. Now I'm tuning into radio..listening to the songs.I realise everything happens for a reason.Some things lost yet found again makes u appreciate people around u better.Some things lost will never be found back again.All we can do is always treasure what we have around us.

I attended a funeral today.My first time.Jian wen, I finally understood how u felt when ur grandma past away...It's indeed sudden.This is a distant family friend...like a grandma to me. I still rem a few mths ago my mum wanted to visit her but I didn't want to cos' I was tired.But now, I'll never get the chance again.Oh dear...Talking about how regrets always tend to come too late. (o.O) I saw her lying peacefully.I have been impatient with my parents these days.It's time to do self-reflection.It's just that now that I have been working these days I want to get things done quickly.

Next sem is gonna be a busy semester, as well as the semester that follows. I already have a vision of it. Guys in my life is gonna be zero.I swear I'm gonna lose my charm and give NO GUYS the wrong idea.So next year's V-day is gonna be me,myself & I. It's just gonna be school, studies, chill out, reading and myself.I'm gonna spend the year to bring my maturity to another level.One thing for sure is that I'm still gonna be myself, treating others with sincerity.I do everything with sincerity...I swear I never tried to lead someone on.I try to set my rules before going furthur with guys. But it's always opposite...I've been toking abt so much abt guys I'm going crazy.Yes, they are driving me crazy. It doesn't matter what others think of me as the bad girl as long as I know I never tried to toy with guys' hearts.I never tried to get them to get things for me, never try to get them to do things for me...never let them blah blah...I guess I'll have to put a stop to guys in my life and I'll stop blogging abt guys...Love life is 0 until I enter NIE...I'll continue to keep my faith that I'll meet the guy of my dreams.There's a time for everything.

Can a guy and a girl ever be just friends?

2005-04-08T00:49:00.000+08:00

They may..but they will go thru the stage where they will wonder if both have a chance to be together..

Can a guy and a girl ever be just friends?
Have you seen a pig fly?

They are friends becos both wonder whether they have a chance to be together.Pls do not let this be ur objective in life..If not it'll be a sad thing. Dun befriend someone to get something out of it. Do it willingly.

BuSy BuSy

2005-04-08T00:30:00.000+08:00

It's my cousin's 21st birthday...went to wish him happy birthday at pasir ris chalet. I like what I bought for him..a cap..and a set of sports towel and water bottle.I've been quite busy these days...schedule is booked...in a way is good...give me less time to worry abt unecessary things. I'm tired...

I like Kelly Clarkson's " Breakaway"...I want to breakaway from the things tat are happening around me...Not that they are bothering me but I just want to stop thinking about things...Things like BOYS!! Yes, Alicia...boys are a headache...From today onwards, I'll throw rocks at guys who come near me...Hahahaha...Next year is definitely gonna be a year where I'll spend V-day alone..probably studying for exam or doing projects...

To say let go is a lie...I am still trying to do tat I guess...Or maybe I've let go, just tat I haven't met the right guy yet. I was introduced to a guy by my cousin today..He's my cousin's cousin...Luckily I escaped...My cousin, Bryant actually told him I'm a nice girl..blah blah...*rolls eyes* What's up with these people? The more people try to introduce guys to me, the more I am determined to stay single for now. IT IS REALLY NOT THE RIGHT TIME.

I can't wait for my 21st birthday...Where I can celebrate with my friends...Yeah!! :) 2 more years! Time will fly just like a year has passed since I was attached. I met guys in the midst...but each time the "relationship" is over, I heaved a sigh of relief that I was not attached in the first place. People confess too fast..How can u know whether u really like the person in just a few days? Face the fact that we can never rush into such things. That's y people say u FALL in love and not LOOK for love. Say I'm selfish or whatever but all I can say is that never get attached when u are not ready or just for the sake of being attached. The feeling is still in me...I may be admiring couples...but I'd rather remain single as happiness is in my control.

3am in the morning

2005-04-05T03:30:00.000+08:00

All thanks to the vanilla french coffee I drank at Orchard Cine that my eyes are still wide open. It's so quiet...a long time since I'm up till so late...This proves that I have been a good girl with no last minute work..I spent time at Orchard lib while waiting for my camp mates to finish their movie. The cds are great...I'm gonna check out that place once more on my own. I forgot to get little twin stars stickers are taka...

I heard that Mrs Quek is not in school yet..Oh dear..This is already the 2nd week. I have decided to buy her flowers tomorrow and visit her.My dressing to Orchard was quite stylish..a bit formal but oh well...it has some dressing sense.

I miss being attached but no way! I still prefer being single. The little crushes that you have will always remain the sweetest. It seems like school is gonna start soon once again...I better plan my time well.There is so much to do...The outline of my holis is already planned out with a chalet and camp...Dun think it's just a 1 camp..There are 6 days altogether...seperated into 3 days per week. I know I'll have the time of my life..especially in the mass dance.

I'm determined to personalise my room!! :) Oh yeah man! I can be very sure I'll be throwing away countless bags of rubbish which i have kept for years.My level of maturity has ceased...I hope to bring it up to another level too...Go go go...I also hope to improve my dress sense...no more slacky t-shirts and jeans...I'll be more presentable..I hope to get a new pair of jeans which I will save to buy in Hong Kong. I realise I still like Hillary duff's 1st cd..but it's just an urge. I wun die without it so I'll just save up. I've been overspending, it's time to mellow down..After all what are best friends for right Alicia? Hehehe...R u thinking what I'm thinking? *Hillary Duff's songs*

hehhe..

2005-04-04T13:12:00.000+08:00

You're the innocent girl next door. You are
friendly, cheerful, kind, and happy. You like
to spread your happiness around making people
feel warm and joyous. To do this you like to
bake cookie and muffins while giving kind
compliments. Plus you actually give apples to
your teachers. You're pure and innocent and
most likely haven't broken many rules. Everyone
loves you. How can they not?

What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
brought to you by

-- The arrival of the holis --

2005-04-04T12:50:00.000+08:00

:) Yes!! It's the arrival of the holis le. Muhahha..:) Oh yah...I have so many things I want to do.

1. Clear my room...The job is endless
2.Sign up for the National Youth Achievement Award
3.Sign up for dancing (Modern/Lindy Hop)
4.Go for scrapbook class and do more scrapbooking pages
5.Do a lot of things which I've yet to think of before the busiest 2 semesters arrive
6.Reading

There are so many things I haven' been doing well. I haven't been doing proper reading..often it's scanning of books rather than reading. OMG...I haven't spent quality time at the library. I can't wait for the library at bugis to open so I can visit the place more often..hoping that it can be another studying place for me.

I hope to catch up with my friends as well..:) Miss everyone lots. The last two semesters will be a tough year for me. But I hope to give it all my best to bring up my GPA above 2.I'm aiming for 2.5.

I've been feeling quite lost..Sometimes I do not even know when I'm right or when I'm wrong. Or in life there's no rights and no wrongs? I guess it's just a phase when I'm in my last teenage year. I met up with Lin, an ex-classmate and Nellie as well.Urm...We went to bakerzin. She was surprised to know I'm no longer attached. "Weren't you lovey-dovey with your bf?" Yes, we were...Nellie started to fill her in with my love life. Urm...it's ok to break a few hearts they say. Oh well..I don't think so and I better not let it get into my head. I should do what I think it's right.

I haven't seen Lay pheng in a long time...How have u been doing? I know u're busy and stress but I do hope we can do some catching up. :) Well, friends don't lose touch even for a long long time cos' the bond will always be there. I just hope we can update each other on our lives again.

!Heya!

2005-03-30T15:43:00.000+08:00

It's the beginning of my holidays. I hope to get a job...:) And do lots of scrapbooking.I have been doing a few pages for the Home Economics Club.I'm gonna make somemore for the scrapbook Zhi Sheng gave me on my bdae. I'm gonna go for another scrapbook class soon! Yes! But I've been spending $ on scrapbooking I think I should do some reflection. (o.0) I'm going Hong Kong from the 19th to the 22nd May...so I'm gonna save up and pray hard that I can get some cute stuffs there.

This year is passing by very soon. For peeps out there whose birthday is not here yet - Dun worry, ur birthday is coming...Oh my, it's already end of march. Soon it'll be april...sept...then I'll be graduating soon!! Yikes!

I miss all my friends. It's a good time to do some catching up...I met my pri schmates the other day. I took some photos with them. I can't wait to scrapbook them. Is it worth wasting my time on scrapbooking? I'm gonna spend some time reading. I haven't been reading and I think my English language is becoming worst.

I'm still hesitating about taking dance classes. :) I found a dance partner but that would mean I can't take modern dance. Lindy hop sounds good to me. Oh well, I'll just wait and c. Life is getting boring...I need to spice it up!

AttACHmEnT HaS EnDeD

2005-03-25T19:41:00.000+08:00

Oh man...what I hope wouldn't come has come...Attachment has ended.It means that I'm not longer a teacher in HKSS.I had memorable moments there.It was only the last week tat whoever saw me greeted me.They know they won't get a chance anymore.They like to tease and everything.One asked how would I get angry...Some commented on my looks...Some ask why I have no bfs....They are just so lovable.Some say I am mean...Students will always be students.Most of the time they are just harmless.I know soem made comments abt my presentation for them but I know deep inside they dun mean what they say.The result was satisfying, most of them like my presentation. :) Some say I tok crap but I saw their attentive looks...It made me smile to myself. :)

I guess some are just irritated that I'm so cheerful but I guess I'm just so....One student bought me a baleno singlet...so sweet right, wrote me a letter and asked if she can be my gan mei mei..I promised to take neo prints with them. Students started to add me in friendster too.

And do u all know sth? I m sure that I will continue to be a teacher after my 5 years bond.Everyday is a challenging day, being a teacher is definitely NOT BORING. The technical boy whom i scolded for copying was given a chocolate by me.He wondered where I was going, I just wished him all the best.Teachers may think technical students are hopeless but I do not think so.They need teachers to believe in them in order to succeed.Just like how my teachers believed in me.

BUSY + TIRED = TIME 4 MYSELF

2005-03-17T22:04:00.000+08:00

I'm so busy!!! :) Not exactly lah but have been. When I come home, I don't get to rest much. Thinking it will be better if I live on my own but that will mean that I can be extremely lonely sometimes. Oh well! :)

I'm left with 1 more week for attachment. 4 days to be exact. Tmr is a good day to spend on my own...I realised I have been so busy going out that I should spend time on my own at home. I really need it. This way I can spend less money and I ought to spend more time with my mum. There are so many things for me to do.

Guess what? I have a feeling I'm gonna be single for a long long time...:) I think it will surprise myself but...it says on my palm that I'll have a late marriage.Oh well...who knows. I'll just wait for love to tap me on my shoulder.

I'm thinking of what to do during the holis. Pick up a new skill or save up the $...Maybe can scrapbook all the way. As for after graduation, I'll probably do a pushcart business...:) Muhahaha...can't wait to be my own boss.Alrighty...gonna give a tok to the graduates soon...Brave? but I'd rather say I have no expectation on how i'll perform and just give my best!

The holidays are up ahead...

2005-03-11T10:21:00.000+08:00

The holidays for the Secondary students are here.Today's the last day of school yet I feel no excitement. I must have become a workaholic. *eyes wide open* Today I'm going for a camp fire for the Sec. 1s...helping out.The teacher whom I approached actually asked if I know that I'm not paid.OF COURSE I KNOW.There are many things in life which we do.Most of the time we expect something in return.I'm gonna change my mindset. As a teacher, I should give willingly and not expect something in return. If there is, then it's an extra bonus. If not, LIFE IS AS NORMAL. :)

Yesterday wanted to have a mini picnic with Alicia at Botanic gardens but the weather wasn't as expected.Oh well...so we ate at the food court in Tanglin Mall. We also blew bubbles at esplanade.My first unpleasant incident. A lady wasn't very happy with us and she was so afraid of dirtying her clothings.OH MY GOD!! Oh well..I just left it as it is. ....Thing would have been different if we went to Far East Plaza to shop. Never mind..It was a day full of walking.Luckily I was wearing a pair of confortable shoes.

I decided to spend Saturday alone at home to clear my things and start working on my report. *Need time to myself* That's v impt especially when I feel the stress.Maybe I wun be able to find my life partner. *zips* Who would be able to be understanding an stand my tantrums? It's easy to say "yes" but not easy to do.Let's just wait to fall in love. :)

3 more hectic weeks to go....

2005-03-04T08:11:00.000+08:00

*Sob* *Sob* 3 more weeks to go....I can't bear to leave. The week after is gonna be the holis...Yahoo~! But I'm gonna be busy.I'll be decorating the notice board b4 I go to give them a brand new look...

On Wed I met up with Alicia..:) I had a good time with Alicia- as usual..We went to Breko cafe and spent out little afternoon there. We saw 2 mediacorp stars.My blog sounds boring. My teacher just gave me a relieve class. (o.O) How am I going to control 4N1??Wish me luck! My hands are all clammy and cold. I've got so much to write but now like not much anymore.Muhaaha..Finally *what* I forgot....It's FRIDAY!! Oh yah...FINALLY...I told my best friend I met this friend of hers to borrow a book "Tuesdays with Morris".It's quite a gd book, am reading it now.

I can't wait for sharing session with my classmates tmr.But most importantly I can't wait to mit them or rather only some of them.I'm back into scrapbooking...:) I've finally written a letter to my friend in Aust. But I haven't send it there...I must start to send the little things :).Tatata..c my teacher coming liao.

Juz-Another-Update

2005-02-28T14:44:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps, life's as usual...Been busy with attachment and same old things like housework and own stuffs. :) I'm into scrapbooking again! I've managed to finish a page for my friend in USA.:) I can't wait to send it, at the same time, write a letter. O lvl results' out. I didn't really stay in the hall cos' I felt as if I'm a busybody even though I wanted to see the expression of the students. It reminded me of my time. 3 years have passed..Time flies.Let's c...Alicia and I have been best friends for 4 years already right? It's time to bring our friendship to another level which I have yet to do it with her.

4 more weeks to attachment. I can't bear to end....*SOB* I've made good friends and I hope we'll get to spend more time together before I leave. Oh well, as for chances to see the faces of the students..I'm sure I have much more chances. My teacher did a good job again. I'm so roud of her!! 100% passes. :) and majority is B3 and above. Neighbourhood school it might be but....it has its potential too!

A SaTuRdAy moRnINg on mY oWn

2005-02-19T10:41:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh~! I'm falling sick with cough and sore throat. I'm gonna teach with a microphone next week I guess. Yesterday my liason's officer, Veron from TP came to visit me. I didn't even get to converse with her.She only told me to keep up the good work. That was what she wrote in my log book too. It seems that Mrs XXXX spoke well of me.Thanks to her.And also she told Veron I'm outstanding. But Mrs XXXX was told that the students frm. RGS and Tanglin were equally outstanding. Mrs XXXX told me I have to do some things to make sure I'm outstanding and that she will also write me a testimonial. She stated that she haven't written any for TP students yet. Oh man, I'm gonna be the first~! Alright, I'm not gonna try too hard. I'll just do my best and let the rest fall in place.I'll brainstorm for some ideas to make myself deserve the testimonial!

I didn't go to SAJC in the end.Neither tuition too. It was cancelled.Oh well~! Nellie observed that I fell sick since attachment started.I have to put my health in the first place.Enjoyment can always come later.My 6th week of attachment is starting. Oh man....I really treasure every moment spent there. Mrs XXXX also told me to consider going back to HKSS when I start teaching. I definitely will I told her!

I watched the chingay rehearsal yesterday. It was caught by surprise when Zhi sheng and I went to Orchard. We had sushi for dinner. I love sakae! :) I saw the decorated cars...So pretty! Lots of effort were put in. And on top of that, there was a toddler in front of me. So sweet! She reminds me of Faezah's niece.

tHoUghT oF THe DaY

2005-02-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

I had a passing thought abt men who propose on this day when I pass by the jewellery shop.Alicia had this mischievous smile. What about those who break up today? Oh gosh~! She's so evil but nevertheless she is right...What about them?Perhaps to most of us, it's just another day.

HoW I SpEnT mY vAlEnTinE'S DaY

2005-02-14T22:21:00.000+08:00

It first started off with day in HKSS. The students were asking me how I'm going to spend my day. They were more of curious than concern. Muhahha..the same goes for my teacher in charge. She even asked me what I'm doing with my best friend.So I gave her a plan of what we're doing.I took 2 classes today as Mrs Pada was not in sch.Students were like:

Student:"Cher, what r u doing today?"

Me: " I got no one to date me."

Student:"U so beautiful, y dun have?"

Me: "I'm going out with my best friend." *sees the unconvinced look in their face*

Student:" Cher, u no date ah?"
"I go out with u lah cher?"

For the NA class, I threatened to make them stay back because I told them I have no date and if they are noisy, I don't mind making them stay back with me.Later on I walked out with Mrs XXXX of hkss...She told me she was glad I was not fearful of the NT classes and she have teachers who try to avoid the technical class as much as possible.

I went home late....one of the few days where i reach home at 3+. I went to bugis to pray for the new year.I was so glad it wasn't closed.I walked past Breko cafe and thought it was a gd idea to dine there. She agreed in the end.We ate pasta and ordered a drink...We signed up for the Breko card too.$20 was the membership, quite worth it when we shared.Beside us was gays I think according to Alicia. I didn't noticed.

Even though it wasn't a lovey dovey day for me, I am glad I had a gd time with Alicia.At least I have a best friend who loves me.Muhahaha..:) I like what u have got for me. I hope u like mine too even though it wasn't costly.If I knew u like my earrings better than I wld have gotten u a pair. The next time round I'll get u 1 ?Thanks also for accompanying me to the scrapbk shop even though u have a quiz.Ee leng our ex boss gave us balloons, 1 each. The rest of the world must be thinking why is it that we have similar balloons. We took neo prints, saw my cousin.Hehehe...That's how I spent my 19th V-day !~!~!~!

Thought of the day: I'm not sure if my best friend and I have another chance to spend V-day together next year. We will see how it goes even though I'm hoping that we get another chance. I wanted to do a special activity with u, but no time. Next time bah~!

SuNfLoWerY mE

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A SaTuRdAy moRnINg on mY oWn

tHoUghT oF THe DaY

HoW I SpEnT mY vAlEnTinE'S DaY

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